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Having a DID phenomena we have never heard of!

Postby watcher » Sat Nov 23, 2019 4:32 am

We are asking for some insight to what is going on with us. John Jack and others have heard of this with those with DID please give us a citation for this information.
In the last two months we are experienced something we have never dealt with in 57 years of our DID disorder. We are dissociating extremely a lot and from passed history at this level of dissociation we should be in a revolving door cries and bat caca crazy but his is not the case.
We do not know if we should scared, paranoid or what! We feel always frozen to act either way on this.
Should we be preparing for a major dissociative storm? Everything quit on the home front within the system. Everything seems to be working great “at this time”. This is no type of integration we have ever heard! We are still clearly fragmented identity/ personality wish.
Our therapist is worry and is talking to trauma specialist at this time.
Anyone have any idea what is going on!
The only change is we have been using a FDA approved device which you must have a Doctor prescription for that stimulates the brain. That is the only change.
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Re: Having a DID phenomena we have never heard of!

Postby Sarandipity » Sat Nov 23, 2019 10:29 am

The FDA device sounds interesting to me because the twins say they can stimulate areas of the brain for different effect. I don't know if they cannot not, if that is a possibility for an alter, but when the twins go into detail and I check what they say - which area for what - they are saying the right area.

I found what you were saying unclear but interpreted it like this: you have revelolving door switching but you're not experiencing any negative effects or feel that you may be about to have a dissociative episode and infact your functioning has improved?

My question would be what's your memory like? Is it continuous or is it stunted due to switching?

Staying calm and seeing what happens each day but preparing for the worst seems most sensible.
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Re: Having a DID phenomena we have never heard of!

Postby watcher » Sat Nov 23, 2019 3:08 pm

Sarandipity we are having a very hard time writing right now but we will post back a reply by the end of the weekend! Thank you for your reply!
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Re: Having a DID phenomena we have never heard of!

Postby TheGangsAllHere » Sat Nov 23, 2019 3:55 pm

I don't understand what you're trying to describe. You're dissociating a lot, but not switching a lot? What does that look or feel like?

You said you feel frozen to act either way--what are the two different ways you would take action about this?

If everything is quiet and working great, why not just enjoy it and see what happens instead of being worried about it? Especially if this has never happened before.

Why do you think that it's something bad instead of something good?

And why is your therapist so worried? Are they just absorbing the worry from you and acting on it?
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Re: Having a DID phenomena we have never heard of!

Postby Floralie » Sat Nov 23, 2019 6:31 pm

I don't understand the message either. Maybe it's because you have hard time communicating, but I have no clue what you meant with two ways either, what are they? Did you mean paranoid or crazy? Neither one sounds like good solution to me. At first I though this is just too advanced English and that's why I don't understand, because that happens sometimes with some sentences, even if I understand all the words, I can't understand what they create together because English works so differently than my native language. But after seeing Gan's questions, I don't think it's just my language skills why I don't understand what are you trying to describe.

Don't feel too bad because of it, I am able to understand experiences I have never had, descriptions of how something feels like in what I call DID language. I don't mean just the lingo, but the way we experience things healthy people don't understand at all how can they feel like. So I believe I'm able to understand when you're able to explain with more detail.

1. Has something happened that triggered this new symptom or state?
2. How's your everyday life things working, are you able to take care of yourself in the level you usually are?
3. How it feels like inside your mind? Describe freely with what ever words, they don't have to be emotions only, but anything.
4. Why do you wanna switch? Do you know who you are, as a part and are stuck in being you and can't deal with everything alone, or is it like a chaos of lot of pats or what is it that you are atm?
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Re: Having a DID phenomena we have never heard of!

Postby watcher » Sat Nov 23, 2019 8:26 pm

Sarandipity first we will try and answer your questions. Please bear with the poor writing, too many little sets of fingers at the keyboard wanting to push buttons. We are sure some of you can relate to this issue!
In the past if we were dissociating and switching at this level we would be moving quickly to be no less than insane. Simply the level of chaos, overload would be so extreme and the mind would be saying nope in 5,4,3,2,1 people we are going to candle power. Let the system crash and pick up the pieces as the system is brought back on-line! Yes this sounds very analytical! This is almost like a crashing computer! This is a safety device, mechanism in the brain, like a circuit breaker, to try and stop this crisis process. The brain can’t take no more! It is dumping trash data created by the crises in the brain and data that is coming out if anything is coming out it is garbage. At this time we should be having blinding headaches but we are having none! We believe this is the time and conditions that people are claiming they are losing memory.
Sarandipity : “you have revolving door switching but you're not experiencing any negative effects or feel that you may be about to have a dissociative episode and in fact your functioning has improved? “.
Sarandipity Yes you are very close in this statement. We at this time are hard pressed in measuring what this improvement is that makes sense from comparison to our past history of DID. We hope this makes sense.
Serendipity :“ My question would be what's your memory like? Is it continuous or is it stunted due to switching?”
Serendipity We do not believe in the myths surround lost memory with DID which is supported by research in the UK and Europe in the last 5 to 8 years.. We believe the much bigger issue, with those with DID, is very severe time distortion. Memory lose and severe time distortion these two monsters look very closely alike but one has a red nose. People with DID the severe time distortion, the sense of time passage in their world is like a ultra macro sense and understanding of their passage of time and events that have transpired in a time frame. Simply stated the resolution of time is to low in this state. Where a normal person, what every is normal with people, and in the sense of time, in a micro perception of time the resolution is very high and events clear in a given time frame refrenernce.
Why is this taking place? A child is being traumatized and abused in let say in an hour time frame. By dissociating and using a severe form of time distortion that event can be perceived in the child’s mind what looks likes seconds to the child with the start of DID but in reality it was an hour. This effect has some kind of mitigating factor on the impact of the event to the child but only as a safety mechanism and it has its limit’s.
TheGangsAllHere : And why is your therapist so worried? Are they just absorbing the worry from you and acting on it?
TheGangsAllHere Our therapist is worried because like us they have never heard of this. This is out of the norm of our history like way out. Our therapist has said if we remotely think something is wrong to call or come to their office PDQ. If we can get to them they will come to us. This is why they have talking to a trauma specialist for guidance!
The only reason we got this FDA approve device was for pain management to keep from having to take hand full of pain medication. The children do not do well with the junk they are sick all the time.
Have to stop here but will follow up trying to finish answering questions posted in the near future we are getting tired quick.
Thanks to all who replied!
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Re: Having a DID phenomena we have never heard of!

Postby Sarandipity » Sat Nov 23, 2019 9:57 pm

Hi Watcher, I have time distortion so that makes sense. Yesterday can seem like weeks ago to me if I've been very upset. The reasons you're saying time distortion happens also makes sense - I don't read DID stuff, I have this concern it'll make me worse which is silly.

The crash you're describing is how it works for me also. I can usually feel it coming though. A couple of weeks before I'll say "I need to go to hospital. I'm going mad" but I'll seem normal. Then a few days before I get really smashed drunk and then I'll be "lights out" This lasts for about 3-4 days and then I'm back to normal.

If this FDA device is for pain and stimulates the brain then it makes sense that you're dissociating. Dissociation blocks pain (for me it can, I guess that's true for others). So it's possibly stimulating the brain to dissociate so you feel less pain.

Seems like you're have to keep monitoring the effects and weigh up the pros and cons. Very interested to know how this continues. Much luck.
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Re: Having a DID phenomena we have never heard of!

Postby watcher » Sun Nov 24, 2019 5:25 am

This is where we are at with the DID. No one once again can help. Guess brave new horizons of DID once again! Remember this always expect the unexpected with DID or whatever they wish to call this!
https://youtu.be/7LMJyK0lj1U
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Re: Having a DID phenomena we have never heard of!

Postby KingsleyHere » Mon Nov 25, 2019 3:26 am

Not sure we understand but reminds us of a few *quiet* periods we've had. We were waiting for something devastating to happen. Very disconcerting. In fact a realignment did take place. It wasn't good or bad just different.
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