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Jalouse and sadic personality againt myself

Postby MenOfTheFutur » Mon Nov 11, 2019 4:14 am

Hello, I'm new, 37 years old boy and french (sorry for my english). I'm not an alter. I keep alway the same conscience, but sometimes my 22 (?) personalites can take the control of my body. I don't know if they can talk to me or send me some mental image inside my inner world.

How to deal with a personnality (personnality 4 who names "Clémentine" or "Homme du futur" (man of the futur)) who thinks she is a wolf/monster/woman, who thinks all my insults or negatif throught are against her, who try to fool me (lies, presents itself as another personality, pretends to disapears or stops to take my control when I make some manipulation to achieve this goal, try to convince myself that I have a "mission" with men from futur), try to destroy my social life (she takes the control of my body/facial langage in an effort to made me no attractive and weak) and hurts me mentaly (lots of bad mood, horrible image-projection in which my girl friend is killed or injured (?)) and physically (muscle pain and lots of paralysis).

She says she loves to tease me or hurt me. When I think than a situation is bad or dangerous, she over reacts and makes me feel bad. It seems than it's personnality 4 who takes the most often the control of my body. When, inside my head, I insult her or when I insult anybody, she triggers muscle paralysis and angry facial expression.

It seems she loves me... All personnalities says she loves me.
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Re: Jalouse and sadic personality againt myself

Postby MenOfTheFutur » Mon Nov 11, 2019 5:30 pm

All my personnalities seemed disturbing by personnality 4. They believed she was a wolf/monster. I have told them that was not true. I have argued and after this they thought personnality 4 is not a wolf/monster.

Lots of my personnalities thought I was angry against them when I was rude. Now, they know it's not true. My anger is againt people or myself.

After this, all my personnalities exept 4 seem vanished. No paralysis or no communication possible...

Personnality 4 has been very difficult to convince than she is not a wolf/monster. It seems she find always a reason to hurt/paralysis me/take the control of my body. She said me she was annoyed because
- other alters thought she is a wolf/monster
- she thinks my girl friend is a wolf/monster (!)

An now, she says than she feels lonely...
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Re: Jalouse and sadic personality againt myself

Postby Sarandipity » Mon Nov 11, 2019 10:34 pm

I have had different types of paralysis and muscle pains. It's awful.

Your wolf person maybe feels it's safer to be a wolf. The overlord in my system portrays himself as a really old vampire type figure sometimes, he can also be a child or a woman - he changes. I just leave him be. He can be troublesome because he will try to convince you vampires are real etc and it's sometimes difficult to suppress or stop that when under severe stress because it's his way of coping, he goes into fantasy land and tries to take the rest of us with him.

Understanding your wolf is the only thing I can think of that might help.
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Re: Jalouse and sadic personality againt myself

Postby MenOfTheFutur » Tue Nov 12, 2019 12:27 am

You are not paralysed now ? And for yours emotions ? It's better ? No more parasitic emotion ?
How have you achieve this ?

When I have talked to personnalities, they said to me than personnality 4 is appeared after I thought I saw a wolf (I was very young).

He can be troublesome because he will try to convince you vampires are real

How ? With the lie and the manipulation? I have seen some lights phenomena very strange which seems like UFO. My personnality can produce this ?

he goes into fantasy land and tries to take the rest of us with him.

Why ?

Understanding your wolf is the only thing I can think of that might help.

How can I do ?
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Re: Jalouse and sadic personality againt myself

Postby Sarandipity » Tue Nov 12, 2019 1:28 pm

MenOfTheFutur wrote:You are not paralysed now ? And for yours emotions ? It's better ? No more parasitic emotion ?
How have you achieve this ?

When I have talked to personnalities, they said to me than personnality 4 is appeared after I thought I saw a wolf (I was very young).

He can be troublesome because he will try to convince you vampires are real

How ? With the lie and the manipulation? I have seen some lights phenomena very strange which seems like UFO. My personnality can produce this ?

he goes into fantasy land and tries to take the rest of us with him.

Why ?

Understanding your wolf is the only thing I can think of that might help.

How can I do ?


When I was a child going into imagination was a way of escape. To escape everything that happened to me. So as an adult when stressed it can still happen or try to happen.

As a child it's easy to believe the impossible so when this is used as a coping mechanism to escape reality because reality is too much to deal with it stays as a coping mechanism into adulthood.

I've realised or became aware it's a particular alter that picks this particularly, the overlord.

I do think alters can make you hallucinate. The twins in my system can definitely do that. As a child I'd see things. As an adult after I experienced quite severe trauma it happened too. I saw fairies and toadstools. I think it's the brains way of overwriting the bad things that happened.

Understanding the wolf could be exploring the possibility that this was a child coping mechanism and how that worked for you.
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Re: Jalouse and sadic personality againt myself

Postby MenOfTheFutur » Tue Nov 12, 2019 8:07 pm

it's things like "we're in the matrix" "magic is real" "we can manipulate time" - all that sort of stuff.

It's very strange because personnalities have said me "I'm inside a reality game/false world", "I can travel through the time with the object "god"", "I have to colaborate with men of the futur who try to fixe the world". But sometimes, they say the opposite...

Yours illusions seem realistic or not ? It's very strange because, I have seen a light circle in my kitchen and few time later, my girl friend has seen exactly the same but smaller.


Understanding the wolf could be exploring the possibility that this was a child coping mechanism and how that worked for you.

I have try again to convince Personnality 4 about the imposibility of a wolf or a monster inside the closet of my old bedroom. She is very scpetical and I have to give very good arguments to convince her. She try to contradict all my arguments. I have try to relive the old trauma sequence inside a bedroom to show her that brain can misinterpret the reality. She was scared and has try to take the control of my body. Lots of paralysis...

I say to personnality 4 that she is no a wolf/monster, but a brain defence system.
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Re: Jalouse and sadic personality againt myself

Postby Sarandipity » Tue Nov 12, 2019 8:17 pm

MenOfTheFutur wrote:
it's things like "we're in the matrix" "magic is real" "we can manipulate time" - all that sort of stuff.

It's very strange because personnalities have said me "I'm inside a reality game/false world", "I can travel through the time with the object "god"", "I have to colaborate with men of the futur who try to fixe the world".

Yours illusions seem realistic or not ? It's very strange because, I have seen a light circle in my kitchen and few time later, my girl friend has seen exactly the same but smaller.


Yes the illusions seem really realistic at the time. I know they're illusions but they're fascinating because they seem so real.
The twins also claim time travel as well as traveling to different dimensions, they say they have to stop an alien war that hasn't happened yet - stuff like that. They want to fix the world.

Maybe it's a common DID thing. I don't know.
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Re: Jalouse and sadic personality againt myself

Postby MenOfTheFutur » Wed Nov 13, 2019 1:39 am

Yours illusions are in color ? Transparents ? Like light ? It seems like a real object ?

Before, I could communicate and
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