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Ghost limbs *possible trigger*

Postby vix » Sat Apr 20, 2019 2:29 pm

Hi! It's Lee here. We've been wondering if other people experience a similar thing (and how to explain this to our T) but here goes the question.

*trigger warning for sexual stuff??*

I'm a male, the body is female. When I front I can feel my penis. I also know other boys in the system do so. And I can feel it react to things, like if I'm aroused when talking to someone I'm interested in, I feel my penis react to it.

*trigger warning end*

I have heard before stuff like animal alters feel their horns or their tails, and I know there are other alters in our system who feel their body proportions differently to what this body actually is. I was wondering if anyone has similar first hand experience?
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Re: Ghost limbs *possible trigger*

Postby Floralie » Sat Apr 20, 2019 2:50 pm

Boys in the system are not willing to share, they're shrugging their shoulders and looking away. But I think they do know, and feel. Or some of them do. Because I'm a female living in this system, and even I know the difference between female and male sexual arousal. Is it all of them or just some, I don't know. I have examples but since they are not willing to share, no examples or names will be told in here.

I can easily know how it feels like to have a tail too. I even know how different parts of the tail have different sensitivity levels, like that the tip of the tail is more sensitive to touch than the rest of it.
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Re: Ghost limbs *possible trigger*

Postby fireheart » Sat Apr 20, 2019 7:03 pm

Situation normal.
You're not alone.
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Re: Ghost limbs *possible trigger*

Postby Muninn » Sat Apr 20, 2019 9:14 pm

Sensing gendered body parts, which are not on the outside body, is definitely a thing in our system.

Same for the non human body parts as far as I know.
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Re: Ghost limbs *possible trigger*

Postby subversiverisks » Sun Apr 21, 2019 6:18 am

Later on, ur prolly learn you got all genders and alter types. It is just not for you to keep anyones secret ur a male, prolly someone in a year an alter or the host encountered. Maybe in a different phase of the journey that will make sense....
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Re: Ghost limbs *possible trigger*

Postby vix » Sun Apr 21, 2019 12:44 pm

Thank you all! I didn't expect for this to be such an awkward topic for others, I'm sorry if the question made you uncomfortable!
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Re: Ghost limbs *possible trigger*

Postby brockovich4321 » Sun Apr 21, 2019 8:59 pm

Yes I have a penis. I think it's a normal penis. I just live in a girls body - TJ
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