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Postby Lightfire » Thu Nov 08, 2018 7:45 am

Hey guys. It's been a while. I've been thinking about integration for a while now. We don't have did/osdd specialists where we live, but I've been seriously considering integrating for the past month now. I've heard of it and know what it means, but I don't know how to find someone who can do it.

I don't even know how to ask for help with this.
I never thought that I'd even consider it. But at this point I believe that it would be for the best. If someone could point me in the right direction that would be most helpful. And I'm sorry if I came off gloomy in this post. And thank you for taking the time to read this.
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Re: Integration

Postby BeccaBee » Sun Nov 18, 2018 12:59 pm

maybe try isst-d.org? I think that takes years and years and years and you like work through other stuff first. we want to, too.

we had like a trial meld that lasted for a couple days but I think it was only partial because we haven't processed all our trauma.

it was really awesome though. I remember it was really easy to move my body and aim my hands. I was way less clumsy. and I knew a lot of stuff at the same time. it was pretty cool.
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Re: Integration

Postby Lightfire » Tue Nov 20, 2018 11:03 pm

Thank you for your reply. The reason I made this post is because I feel like I'm in my host's way. I feel like it would be better if I would integrate so that he can have a life. I was just feeling bad about all of the things that were going on. I'm going to look into it. And I'm prepared for the work. Again, thank you.
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Re: Integration

Postby ItsJustUs » Mon Nov 26, 2018 3:10 pm

Lightfire wrote:Hey guys. It's been a while. I've been thinking about integration for a while now. We don't have did/osdd specialists where we live, but I've been seriously considering integrating for the past month now. I've heard of it and know what it means, but I don't know how to find someone who can do it.

I don't even know how to ask for help with this.
I never thought that I'd even consider it. But at this point I believe that it would be for the best. If someone could point me in the right direction that would be most helpful. And I'm sorry if I came off gloomy in this post. And thank you for taking the time to read this.


I have one part who integrated into another part. Basically, she (the part who integrated) felt like her job was done, and she was no longer needed in the role she had been playing. Not in an angry or sad "I'm not needed anymore!" way, but more of a "my job is done here, and I'm tired and need rest," kind of way. So she talked to Delilah, who she got along well with. Delilah agreed that they could "mesh." And with both of them agreeing... they just sort of melded together. It was like Delilah opened her arms to part B. Part B stepped into those arms and allowed herself to be held, and then Part B just sort of stayed there, and was eventually absorbed.

Rather than disappearing, Part B can still be felt within Delilah. I don't really know how to explain it. We know she's still there, just in a different way. Delilah's personality shifted slightly and she now has a sense of humor that she lacked before (Part B loved to laugh). I didn't experience this, it happened before I became aware of my others. I only know it because Val and Delilah both remember it, and have both told/shown me.

SO.. I don't know if that's helpful, but that's our experience.

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