Our partner

Stopped all addiction and feeling crazy

Dissociative Identity Disorder message board, open discussion, and online support group.

Moderators: Snaga, NewSunRising, lilyfairy

Stopped all addiction and feeling crazy

Postby bellic007 » Fri Nov 02, 2018 10:13 am

I have stopped smoking, stopped pornography and everything but for many days i am feeling so much crazy like i have no way to live. I am just empty and empty all alone.i stoppedall this addictions to heal from dissociation and depression but stopping addiction has not helped me to gain control of life. Now i am feeling so much hopeless, about i dont have my pkeasures at the same time i have a lot more to struggle with.
I feel helpless and hopeless. Smoking daily helped me to relieve tension during that time also it was one way to help me socialize, and thrn pgraphy has helped me to control my libido.
When i stopped both this i feel so anxious and sometimes ends up in panic attacks. What do i do?
Dx Body Dysmorphic Disorder
Self diagnosed Dissociative Disorder

Self Identified Parts
Smoker (M) 14 yo
Vyakulan (M) 23 yo
Nirali(M) 13 yo
User avatar
bellic007
Consumer 6
Consumer 6
 
Posts: 494
Joined: Sat Apr 11, 2015 4:51 pm
Local time: Thu Dec 02, 2021 7:24 pm
Blog: View Blog (0)


ADVERTISEMENT

Re: Stopped all addiction and feeling crazy

Postby NyxX » Fri Nov 02, 2018 11:23 am

You need to find healthy way to fulfil your needs. So I don't know what you might like but go for walks or play a game or do a puzzle or read or study a subject you enjoy. The what doesn't really matter but of course your struggling if you just stopped your addictive behaviour and haven't done anything to try and fill the space in your life it left.
nyx-usual poster
Nixie, The Pixie, Big ZuZu, Z, backup-known active alters
We might mention Ozalces he is our SO he made an account but doesn't use it much
User avatar
NyxX
Consumer 6
Consumer 6
 
Posts: 1054
Joined: Wed Mar 28, 2018 12:18 am
Local time: Thu Dec 02, 2021 1:54 pm
Blog: View Blog (0)

Re: Stopped all addiction and feeling crazy

Postby bellic007 » Fri Nov 02, 2018 11:31 am

NyxX wrote:You need to find healthy way to fulfil your needs. So I don't know what you might like but go for walks or play a game or do a puzzle or read or study a subject you enjoy. The what doesn't really matter but of course your struggling if you just stopped your addictive behaviour and haven't done anything to try and fill the space in your life it left.


Yes my t told me to do exercise two times a day i do them and then gradually stop them as it becamea repetitive it will became counterproductive unless there is external support.
I am attending prayercalls and still i have lot of time and energy left.
My t told me to take walks outside but i am not at all motivated to do that,i feel negative about that.
I am in groups and all.
And was studying for some days with routine and thag helps me stay positive and motivated that also get wrong when became repititive i lost motivation and lead to depression.
Dx Body Dysmorphic Disorder
Self diagnosed Dissociative Disorder

Self Identified Parts
Smoker (M) 14 yo
Vyakulan (M) 23 yo
Nirali(M) 13 yo
User avatar
bellic007
Consumer 6
Consumer 6
 
Posts: 494
Joined: Sat Apr 11, 2015 4:51 pm
Local time: Thu Dec 02, 2021 7:24 pm
Blog: View Blog (0)

Re: Stopped all addiction and feeling crazy

Postby sleepingwolf » Sat Nov 03, 2018 3:42 pm

We wanted to write a bit of a reply to this here, as it reminded us of us a few years ago...

First of all, it sounds like you are doing super great and really know the way forwards. That's quite a hard thing to realise, so go you!

I'd also say what you are wanting to do, with your changes, will take time. It will just take time.

Something that you might be able to look at is why you have been doing those addictions in the first place. We used to think that 'giving up' the substance caused all the anxiety, depression, difficulty and so on...but actually we were using the addictions to cover up our feelings.

Once you take away your addictions you are going back to a 'base level' of how you actually feel. This may be quite shocking and difficult, but it's nothing to worry about. If you are reaching your 'base level' of how you feel, you have a chance to heal yourself, and heal for real.

This will take time, and you have to be patient with it all. If you are feeling anxiety, then thats ok, and you don't need to run from it. You can start to do helpful things for the anxiety, like mild exercise, meditation, a nice bath...so on. These will take time to work, and won't be like the 'addiction' that instantly masks it. We found it took quite a few months for us to notice the positive effects of our new healing routines.

We'd also say don't push yourself too much. It took us a few years to transition from addictive behaviours to purely (almost) healthy and healing behaviours. It really didn't happen overnight. We changed smoking from 10 a day, to 5, to 3, to 1, to once a week....over about a year.

Good luck with it all...it sounds like you've got the right mindset anyhow!

:D :D :D

Gothika (with Cuthbert and a few others) - A few in the Albion System
The Albion System - 500+ Tribal members
12 Co-Hosts
A bunch of Littles
A few Pure Warriors
Some Faeries
Proud and brilliant Animals
A whole load of amazing guys...
User avatar
sleepingwolf
Consumer 6
Consumer 6
 
Posts: 276
Joined: Fri Jul 13, 2018 7:55 pm
Local time: Thu Dec 02, 2021 1:54 pm
Blog: View Blog (0)

Re: Stopped all addiction and feeling crazy

Postby Jolly jo » Sat Nov 03, 2018 8:12 pm

I know how you might be feeling. I also have various addictions or habits which help lower anxiety and help me cope with life. However, they are not healthy - emotionally and/or physically - and I need to continue to try to reduce them or stop them.
However, like you are discovering, doing that comes at a cost. I tend to binge and am addicted to nicotine replacement to name but a few, but they help maintain me a bit. without them I feel worse but its a vicious cycle. Doing both these things makes me feel bad about myself and lack of control, but without I get overwhelmed.
I try to concentrate on the long game - to move forward I know I have to feel what I feel and pushing it down with addiction is not the way forward.
I haven't overcome my addictions but I keep trying. Well done for getting as far as you have!
Diagnosed DID with a few other states.
User avatar
Jolly jo
Consumer 6
Consumer 6
 
Posts: 479
Joined: Sun Aug 26, 2012 10:04 pm
Local time: Thu Dec 02, 2021 2:54 pm
Blog: View Blog (0)

Re: Stopped all addiction and feeling crazy

Postby goofygirl78 » Thu Nov 08, 2018 12:09 pm

I wish I understood what it meant to get off of all addictions. One of my personalities is a hard core addict though all of us smoke cigarettes and have since age 11. I can imagine what you are going through though as I've managed to tackle some of them for brief periods of time and the pain was agonizing. The panic and anxiety, utter depression. But I know getting through all of that will be worth it.

I agree with the advice to find healthy activities to replace your addictions with. Also, something I am getting into before abruptly quitting (which I intend to do as my hard core addict is an all or nothing kind of chick so I have to go cold turkey) is looking for forums such as this one to discuss withdraw with. I have tried rehab and it was a waste of time and effort. But online, you and others can open up more comfortably thereby getting to the core of your feelings.

Best of luck to you. You sound like you are on the right path.
goofygirl78
Consumer 0
Consumer 0
 
Posts: 3
Joined: Wed Nov 07, 2018 10:54 pm
Local time: Thu Dec 02, 2021 8:54 am
Blog: View Blog (0)


Return to Dissociative Identity Disorder Forum




  • Related articles
    Replies
    Views
    Last post

Who is online

Users browsing this forum: No registered users and 74 guests