How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Hi viola,

We try to keep track in writing of the things that we want to be sure to mention to the T. We used to do it in a journal to him that we brought to the office, and now we do it in an email that we send the evening before our appointment. Sometimes we start the email a few days earlier if there's something we're worried we'll forget, and then we save it in drafts and add on to it until the night before the appointment.

Then even if we decide at the appointment that we don't want to talk about that thing, at least we'll have the option. Otherwise, important things can get lost if whoever goes to the appointment doesn't remember them or is afraid to mention them, etc.

Amythyst wrote:only thing we can think of is maybe its something to do with Ciara telling our T some stuff that some parts wanted to keep buried or whatever. Ciara's been trying for weeks to talk about some possible trauma memories & finally described one on wednesday. then the nightmares started that night.

That sounds like a very reasonable theory. And.. hugs. We've had plenty of dreams where we were forced to employ deadly force (and a dream once where we were killed), but never us vs us like that. Ouch! And hugs.

dizzy and tummy is nauseous and stuff cause we're trying to remember too hard maybe.

<3Sabrina<3

UGGGGGGHHHHHHHH! Very sick. Very upset. We are rapid switching for some unkown reason. I can't focus. What is going on (asking inside)? We are now getting a headache on top of that. I feel I can't hold on. Yep, another switch is comign. I got to go.

-- Sun Nov 29, 2020 1:59 am --

Jessica6 wrote:
dizzy and tummy is nauseous and stuff cause we're trying to remember too hard maybe.

<3Sabrina<3

Hey- sorry to hear you aren't feeling well. We hope y'all feel better soon.

oOo Sending moral support to you all.

oOo We had some rapid switching a few days ago, including during our T appointment. We ended up switching four or five times in front of her. She did not bat an eye. Oh well. That's French psychoanalysis anyway. (shrug)

oOo Had nightmares about the pandemic, and a hard time focusing though we're less switchy today.

oOo Oh well. This too shall pass.

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van Hohenheim.

the last 2 nights were still waking up at like 3am but not remembering nightmares.

so, not sure if the nightmares are over but we're still wakingup at 3am for no reason, or if we're still having nightmares that wake us up but now we dont remember them.

idk, i guess its better not havging (or not remembring) nightmares but we're still not getting enuf sleep cos of getting woken up.

we did journalling really good for a couple years then kinda just stopped earlier this year. we havent touched it or looked at it in months. maybe since fegruary. its the same sorta block that kept uss away from here for so long? like we think about it but something kinda nudges our thoughts away like we're not allowed.

ciaras been good about remembering stuff tho so she'll probably tell the T about all this stuff anyways.

we hope everyones having a good day!

viola

hey Iain,

we're glad you're all ok & you were able to do fun stuff @ home.

<3 <3 <3

viola & ciara

Glad to see some of my friends still on here!
And some new names, as well.

Hope you are well and sending hugs and good thoughts.

Welcome back, fireheart!! We've missed you.

Iain, I'm glad your Thanksgiving was ok and that you got to do fun stuff.

We've been going through some really intense stuff with our T. We were so worked up today that we were hyperventilating and having trouble getting the words out. Now we're trying to just take care of ourselves and be calmer for the rest of the day.