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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby companionwolf » Wed Sep 23, 2020 4:58 pm

We’re doing really well, which scares me because if we aren’t suffering, how are we real? Which... doesn’t make much sense given the fact we worked for 5 years prior to actual diagnosis on communication and such, but we’ve been in specialized therapy for less then a year and done so well? I don’t know, I just have this weird sense of ‘if you’re not struggling with it, it’s not actually x’ which is a bit silly but it’s how I feel.

Also struggling with letting the young ones post here - I censor them a lot, not even on stuff that’s censor worthy, just because their verbosity (be it actually theirs or just my influence as a always present part with them) scares me. I want to let them have a safe place beyond our private journal but it’s scary. To see their words I guess and know that’s not mine. Some part of it also feels like I’m making their words up and lying by proxy, but I know that’s not true due to the annoyed feelings and internal sense of eye rolls I get when I think that. I guess it’ll get easier with time.

Warm thoughts and safe hugs (if wanted) to everyone here.

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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby TheGangsAllHere » Wed Sep 23, 2020 5:42 pm

We're feeling good right now because of all the positive feedback we're getting on another DID forum. We opened our computer this morning to a bunch of notifications starting, "Thank you so much...," "This. This. This...," "This was so helpful...," etc. There's someone in here for whom that means a lot--that they're taking this thing they're really ashamed of and know we would get strange weirded-out reactions about from anyone who we tried to tell in real life, and using it to really help people.
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Wolf,
I just wanted to point out that you said,
I just have this weird sense of ‘if you’re not struggling with it, it’s not actually x’ which is a bit silly but it’s how I feel.

but THEN you said,
Also struggling with letting the young ones post here

So, no need to be scared--it sounds like you do have things you still struggle with! :D :D

Hope people are having a good day.
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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby spinningtops » Wed Sep 30, 2020 8:39 am

hello, want to say hi. hope you all are doing ok. wishing you all the best. <3
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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby MakersDozn » Thu Oct 01, 2020 12:56 am

Still working on re-setting our finances post-layoff. Our T reassures us that we are in a solid position and will find ways to minimize any new financial challenges. We're trying to keep remain calm and stable.

Good thoughts to everyone.

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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby Snaga » Thu Oct 01, 2020 5:56 am

I have not even begun resetting mine... been coasting along, but changes will have to be made in the coming months. 2021 will be a different year for me.
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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby MakersDozn » Fri Oct 02, 2020 9:00 pm

Hoping that your upcoming situation will be as smooth as possible, Snaga.

We're dealing with constant anxiety. Hard to regulate because our system is attached to dysregulation and therefore finds it extremely difficult to regulate. Probably should write about it in our journey thread, but we don't have the spoons now.

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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby spinningtops » Wed Oct 07, 2020 6:37 am

lost a few hours of time tonight. and was supposed to do a bunch of stuff that i didn't do.
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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby IainEtc » Wed Oct 07, 2020 8:06 am

MakersDozn wrote:Hard to regulate because our system is attached to dysregulation. MDs


TOTALLY! You are SO smart.

We've gotten our sleep schedule all messed up. Different people are up different times so we're not getting a lot of sleep right now. It's making us kind of weird (and Host is grumpy).

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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby ArbreMonde » Wed Oct 07, 2020 2:32 pm

oOo We are doing our best to manage the situation Theia talked about in our journey thread.

oOo Slowly recovering some of us, though we might expect changes in the overall composition of the system in the future as everybody "emerges" back again.

oOo If some of you might be so kind as to give your opinion on the situation in our journey thread, we will be thankful.

oOo Wishing you all to have good days ahead.

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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby MakersDozn » Fri Oct 09, 2020 12:33 am

We had a temperature, so we stayed in bed most of the day and rested. Somewhat better now, but we won't leave the apartment until we're completely better.

Had a good T session last night. Trying to appreciate small gains on focus on taking a doable step. Hard to keep things in balance, but we need to keep trying.

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