Been feeling weird lately. I was doing great more getting worse for some reason again. Feeling weird and panicky. And nervous. And not like myself. And I swear I keep hearing... I don't want to finish that... I can't tell what they're saying but I'm scared. I want to laugh and cry and yell at them to shut up. I'm sure I'm just imagining them but Idk why. But I'm scared it's getting worse. I just feel depressed and resigned. Just waiting until I can't wait anymore. Idk. I'm scared it might be something organic. Something with no cure that's just going to keep getting worse until there's nothing left of me. I wonder who I will be then and I hope I won't be here to see.
I saw not everyone is doing so well either. I'm sorry to see that and wish... And wish I wouldn't lose my train of thought... Wish I had more time, no just common human decency, and a home and a computer with internet, and I wish I would read all your posts and take the time to give the good replies you deserve, since I know most of you here have posted really great helpful replies to me and I'm very grateful and I always mean to reply but I'm pretty sure I never did. Thank you.
But Becca, et al., your boss sounds like a bitch lol. You have always seemed like one helluva badass. If your boss can't see how valuable you are, both as an employee and as a person, then that is her mistake she makes at her own peril.
Also, I think i read about Cody and Ian having trouble with their host going back into denial. Really sorry to hear that. I hope he remembers to stay calm and not make any rash decisions to jeopardize all the progress you have made. But you've been there before, so know matter how hard you fall, you'll remember to pick yourself up even higher, so things can only get better even if they seem bad now. Stay strong boys.
Stay safe everyone. Thanks again. Goodnight, and try to enjoy your weekend.