how I'm doing today? it will be really nice and cool when I have something besides #######4 at work to talk about.
my head hurts. from being an asshole and eating cheap takeout. and also from going to work and using computers.
I cant stop clenching my teeth cuz work is pissing me off.
I'm trying to adjust to my traumatic encephalopathy dementia future #######4.
welcomed a new bee named Nova.
dont know anymore what's from dissociation and what's from encephalopathy. just want to stay safe long enough to get my kid independent and off doing her thing and definitely not taking care of me.
and I'm being a tenacious ###$ face as usual and refusing to even try for disability because I think I can work long enough to get my finances in order even though that's probably gonna ###$ my brain up. but I dont think I will get approved anyway unless I spend a few more years beefing up medical documentation so that's even more $#%^ on my list of $#%^ to do with no energy so i can survive the disability application process.
and also trying to figure out how to buy black market oxygen, since it's not an approved treatment for encephalopathy yet. there's a lot of research supporting oxygen therapy, and hyperbaric oxygen chambers. but its crazy expensive and only used here for wound care. I've read some people go overseas for it. I just want an oxygen canister with a mask i can huff.
and I'm just dropping walls of text for like no reason? which one of us am i?