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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby Ponyta » Sun Apr 14, 2019 11:59 pm

We're scared right now. All of us.

****Trigger warning*****
Bad storm

Suddenly- there's a tornado warning for our area. The wind is roaring outside. Our littles are scared the most. I'm sorry. I have to wait until later to reply. I need to log off now- due to this.
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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby icecreamvi » Mon Apr 15, 2019 3:00 am

I have good news! first things first I told my crush about my DID and she was totally okay with it and took the time to understand what i am going through. the next bit of good news is that for my final project in my sculpture class i will be doing a large work based off of my different alters (i might share the finished product here). my parents are also becoming more understanding of my disabilities and are accepting of my condition. i still havent told them about my DID, but i think im going to wait when i've finished school.
the only down sides recently is that my mood has been fluctuating, and i havent been in contact with nick or jack that much. i know my alters arent very "present" in my mind and often have long absences, but ive gotten used to a shared headspace. its kinda lonely
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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby Ponyta » Mon Apr 15, 2019 3:30 am

Hey icecreamvi. That's wonderful! I'm glad to hear the good news.

As for us: ****Trigger warning*****

Ponyta wrote:We're scared right now. All of us.

****Trigger warning*****
Bad storm

Suddenly- there's a tornado warning for our area. The wind is roaring outside. Our littles are scared the most. I'm sorry. I have to wait until later to reply. I need to log off now- due to this.
Well- we thought the storm was over. The wind became calm for awhile. Now it's scaring our young ones again.
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Bandit (M), Matt (M),Mary (F), Blue (F), Gloom (F), Rage (F).....
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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby VioletFlux » Mon Apr 15, 2019 10:24 am

Wierdo, I hope you're all safe. Thost storms can get really scary. :(

icecreamvi, congratulations that's great news! :)

I'm tired and stiff and sore and achey this morning. We're starting to wonder if there's someone who's using the body at night when we all think we're asleep.

The suggestion has come up, to set up a camera for a few nights and record us sleeping. But then the fear is that we'll see stuff we don't want to see. :?

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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby birdsong87 » Mon Apr 15, 2019 12:24 pm

just a reminder that some holidays can cause an anniversary reaction if they are trauma-related
now is a good time to prepare for this and make a plan how you spend the next weekend.
in the middle of the reaction it is too late.
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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby VioletFlux » Mon Apr 15, 2019 3:18 pm

Thanks for that reminder Asti.

I think we're going to have to go and see the family againfor the holiday. We'll have to discuss in our system who's going. V2 usually handles these things.

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We / I am procrastinating badly... we super need to start working on income tax stuff. We were supposed to do it yesterday, and I spoke with Trina and she was going to be here to work at it. But we got distracted / disrupted by Viola and Nyssa yesterday and it enver happened.

So we are trying today but Trina isn't here yet. I am worried that I or someone else is blocking her, because we do not want to deal with money stuff.

It's so frustrating because we know that the worst case scenario is still not that bad, and what will make it actually worse is putting it off. Yet we cannot force ourselves to do it.

Self sabotage, financial edition. :?

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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby Ponyta » Mon Apr 15, 2019 6:00 pm

Hey- we're safe. Thanks Arin! We appreciate your concern!
VioletFlux wrote:I'm tired and stiff and sore and achey this morning. We're starting to wonder if there's someone who's using the body at night when we all think we're asleep.
We're sorry to hear that. We hope y'all feel better soon!
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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby birdsong87 » Tue Apr 16, 2019 7:38 am

feeling super weak. not sure if it is because of the workout we tried last weekend or the bunny holiday coming up. taking one step at a time.
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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby VioletFlux » Tue Apr 16, 2019 9:42 am

I hope things are ok birdsong, hope you're feeling better soon.

Glad you're all safe Wierdo!

I woke up feeling really sorta lost and confused or whatever. I dunno, I can't really describe it. Like, feeling sorta disconnected from life in general. :?

We had two disturbing dreams last night, which might be part of it. One about CSA, and then one about xmas and our mum was there. Both dreams woke us up.

We gotta go and get bloodwork done this morning, probably why I'm here today. It's no big deal.

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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby vix » Tue Apr 16, 2019 9:53 am

**** trigger warning ig****

I swear to god I'm going to kill one of these guys who touch me or make advances with their perceived entitlement someday
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