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This is getting old!

Postby MellonCollie » Mon Jul 02, 2018 4:55 pm

Hello...Dissociation happens to a lot of people, but in my case, I basically dissociate on a near competitive level. Even in moments of trying to be incredibly, painfully present, I still lose a good 10 minutes completely blanking out, having answered questions and generally just tapping out.
Between that and having zero ability in articulating how I'm feeling at any given moment in specific detail, I'm sick to death of myself.
Text is usually the only way that I can get a point across, but that's not always an option. I can't explain how I'm feeling or why I blank out so much and it makes me feel even worse. I can't explain it well to my therapist and I'm just so tired of it.
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Re: This is getting old!

Postby ItsJustUs » Tue Jul 17, 2018 4:14 pm

I'm so sorry you're feeling like this.
How many individual parts do you have?
Do you have communication with any of them on any level?

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Re: This is getting old!

Postby MellonCollie » Mon Jul 23, 2018 3:01 pm

ItsJustUs wrote:I'm so sorry you're feeling like this.
How many individual parts do you have?
Do you have communication with any of them on any level?

Kitten


I think there's just one - Max. He's kind of protective and we can sort of communicate. He kind of helps me process things - especially when I'm writing. When I have some emotional shutdowns, he seems to come more to the surface.
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Re: This is getting old!

Postby ItsJustUs » Tue Jul 24, 2018 1:45 am

So when i first commented on your post, it was by accident in the sense that I didn't realize I wasn't in the Dissociative Identity Disorder forum. It's a pretty active forum, if you'd like to come check it out.

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Re: This is getting old!

Postby MellonCollie » Tue Jul 24, 2018 5:28 pm

That's totally fine. Thanks for the comment though!
I'll definitely take a look through the DID forum sometime.
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Re: This is getting old!

Postby ItsJustUs » Wed Aug 01, 2018 2:26 pm

Was thinking about you yesterday so I wanted to say hi and check in to see how you're doing.

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Re: This is getting old!

Postby MellonCollie » Thu Aug 02, 2018 2:16 pm

ItsJustUs wrote:Was thinking about you yesterday so I wanted to say hi and check in to see how you're doing.

K


That's super nice :)
I'm doing alright, thanks! Had an off weekend, but things are picking back up.
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