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Could I have (D)PD?

Postby Ks8721 » Sat Jul 02, 2016 9:10 am

Hi everyone,
lately due to some occuring events I have done a lot of thinking about myself and tryinng to figure out what is going on.. I think I might have DPD or maybe some other PD but I am not sure. Here are some characteristics about me that make me suspect something is 'wrong':

-I always need attention; good or bad (although I am shy and don't like being the centre of attention in groups)
- When I am in a relationship I need constant validation that everything is fine. I mean literally every hour.. When I don't hear from my partner for a couple of hours I am convinced he is thinking of leaving me and I get very anxious, then when I hear from him I am on top of the world. When I don't hear from him I start feeling depressed very easily and will do anything to get his attention (sending sexy texts, pics, try calling him, anything to get a reaction and see things are still good). I get veryyy clingy and I know this scares people off but I can't help/control it. If he doesn't respond instantly I will check his social media to see if he was active/ignoring me. I feel like a stalker.
- I get depressed a lot, fantasize about suicide but have no intention yet of actually doing it, I used to self harm when I was younger, sometimes still think about it though
- Sometimes I feel nothing/no empathy but other times it seems like everything I didn't feel before comes rushing in at once and overwhelmes me.
- I feel like I am addicted to drama/creating drama and for some reason need feeling anxious/hurt. When I am in a stable relationship and get all the attention I need, I feel bored and try to create drama in order for me to feel better and worse at the same time.

I recently dated someone with NPD and this got me to my lowest point ever cause I totally lost control and feel like I needed him so bad and all he did was ignore me when I got clingy, it got so bad I started cutting myself again after 8 years of not doing it.

Some stats: female, 28 y/o, relatively normal childhood although my parents divorced when I was 6.

Thanks for any insights!!
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Re: Could I have (D)PD?

Postby creative_nothing » Sun Jul 03, 2016 9:39 pm

Yes you can.

But should you self diagnose in this way?
No.

Could it be something else?
Yes.

Can anyone on this forum give you a diagnosis?
No.

Besides, how do you know your ex was a narcissist?
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Re: Could I have (D)PD?

Postby Care For All » Wed Aug 03, 2016 6:29 pm

I know exactly how you feel, and have many friends (myself included) who have been through the same thing. I know, for the sake of anonymity we tend to not offer any true sense f community or connection, but.. If you ever want to talk, I'm here. It gets better when you have people who understand. *mod edit*
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