Hi, basic stuff about me I'm 17 & my main language's french so pardon my poor english.
If I post here today it's because I'm scared $#%^ and I don't know what to do. For the last few months I can feel myself getting worse. Lately I realise that I forget everyday words when I talk which I try to hide and feel really bad about it because I used to have a realły good vocabulary reading a ton as a kid & until 2-3 years ago. I feel (and probaly look) extremely awkwàrd whèn with a lôt of people (classroom 4 example). Other stuff i realised is I barely remembèr my trip to frànce this summer, only some little parts of it. Every thing older then a week seems vague. I don't remember the name of movies i recently watched. I worked for like 2 weeks at a wîndow making factory this summer and I felt sô awkward and was making so many mistakes I decided to quit telling a $#%^ reason to my mom. I am awkward at everyday stuff. I have done drugs last year and smoked a lot and it probably is related. I've always been a bit like that but it got 10 times worsè in the last few months. I am skipping a lot of school right now and honestly most of what I do is płay call of duty on my xbox. I rareły go outside and got a bit of weight (always been perfect weight not skinny not fat). rarely see friends and if i do its to get drunk or game. I did not taking any real drugs in the last 4 months (or môre i doñt even have tha good of a notion of time anymore...) as I realised I was ######6 myself up. I smoked once in the last 2 months and it gets me super high with almost nothing which wasnt the case before (I don't act normal at all when im high now). I don't know what to dô, I can't just tell my mom I did a lot of drugs and i feel like I'm getting crazy.I'm turning 18 in less then a year and I don't feel like an adult at all. I have a hard time concentrating on stuff. WTF is happennin to me and what should i do is all i want to know. You can judge me but thats not the answers I need. thanks .
Sorry about those random accents im typing on my phone lol