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Re: Growing Hope - The Gratefulness Thread

Postby Sunnyg » Thu Mar 11, 2021 4:34 am

Today I'm grateful for thoughtful coworkers and KC comedians who move to NYC to grow. Maybe the whole comedy scene needs to be exported for development. I'm so excited that a slot will open up. I just hope he survives his transformation process. The jokes about male rage against the weatherman in the '90s and how Jesus Christ is like a frat boy may find it tough in NYC... It *might not be relatable without educating the audience on the Midwestern point of view. Maybe he'll grow and it won't be an issue. I just wouldn't want to be a white dude from Kansas City trying to make it in NYC as a comedian. All my female comedian friends are still engaged with workshopping material via zoom and will be until things open back up.

I'm grateful for the weather today, but the morning sucked. I'm thankful my daughter's okay, but thieves bashed in the passenger side window rather than causing more damage. I guess that was *almost considerate of the thief who stole my daughter's homework and school laptop. The security guard at school had the job of watching all the parking lot videos today. She was looking for the footage about what happened. I'm wondering what they found. They said this has never happened before. I'm feeling the weight of karma. I'll follow up tomorrow.

On the upside, I'm grateful to my friend who follows twitter for special article requests as topics and sent me an interview request for an article about orgasmic labor in a magazine. I am the voice of what not to do and how to protect and guard yourself for a positive mental health outcome. We'll see if the journalist likes my perspective on why women should be cautious.
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Re: Growing Hope - The Gratefulness Thread

Postby Sunnyg » Sun Mar 21, 2021 6:35 pm

I'm thankful for sick time, vacation time, and all the people willing to listen to my bits.

I tried a new set this week at an open mic. I thought it was funny. I laugh every time I think of it. I wrote about Victorian eroticism and something I saw the club owner do that I thought was adorable. I was so nervous up on stage that my set went fell mostly flat. But from my point of view, it was perfect.

I'm a divorced mom from Overland Park. Our home is typical: Four bedrooms with two dogs who piss everywhere.
- Thank God for tile flooring, weewee pads, and bleach.

When I'm not working, mothering, or picking up after the dogs, then I’m working on romance.

• I even tried making an audio story
• and acting it out with my partner.
• That was fun, But it's a lot of work.
o You know, it's kind of like this,
o Only this would be the solo version.

I mean, why would I want a boyfriend when I can date, right?
• Like when I met a guy up north of town, who arrived so drunk, I had to send him home in an Uber and escape the other direction.
• Then there's the guy who called every morning at 4 am with problems.
• My favorite was the Nigerian scammer.
o He wanted – to send a box of cash.
o That's where I drew the line.

Enough about my dating life.
How many of you ladies can think of a time a man did something sexy while in casual conversation?
• Yeah, that's about what I expected. Nobody yet has said yes.
• But there is something about the masks I have to say.
• Masks are potentially bringing back Victorian Eroticism!
o Which is code for "mental porn."
o It's mysterious wearing a mask.
 When you lower your mask as you talk, it is potentially sexy until I realized it is also a potentially lethal violation.
• For this one man, I decided I wanted it to be an act of intimacy and trust.
• Which I thought was sexy for him, but not every man can get away with it. It's all about where my imagination wants to be.
o Either this man wanted to turn me on, like an '80s silhouette intrigue romance novel,
o Or the man thinks I'm hard of hearing.

- My time's up. Until next time, enjoy reading!
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Re: Growing Hope - The Gratefulness Thread

Postby Sunnyg » Tue Apr 06, 2021 3:43 am

I'm grateful for professional comedians who are willing to share their gems with local aspiring comedians.

But today, there are some things that I'm just not Grateful about. I am not grateful that I feel ignored. I feel oppressed by the patriarchy.

Today was an annoying day, things just feel so controlled and in a bad way. Like the lights that turned off along the drive home. I haven't felt this much negativity before. This isn't sadness. This is irritation and anger. I had an energy healing recently, and all ties were removed. I'm feeling better if I wasn't so irritated about having other people's agendas forced upon us with programming that I don't agree with.

Plus, my plans for last week didn't get a text delivered until after I was already set in my course. That created a whole experience that I would have rather not had alone.

Tonight, the same thing happened with a phone call. They claimed the message only was received hours later.

Then, the post I'd submitted to the local news affiliate with a question for Dr. Oz asking about what is appropriate for a doctor to do during a women's health exam - My question got ignored.

Instead, Dr. Oz recommended caring for your heart health by praying and going to the bathroom to meditate.


That was the worst possible advice he could have given while ignoring my question. I literally can't think of a worse response.

My trauma happened in the middle of a snowstorm in the Spring of 2005 at a New Hampshire Hospital on a "birthing chair" commonly referred to as a toilet - during an exam while I was having orgasmic labor. The physician who was a medical student ###$ me up royally with his exam technique. What a bunch of idiots, both of them. Even if he didn't know how traumatic that is to try to meditate on the toilet, there is no worse answer that Dr. Oz could have given that could have been more inappropriate.

He should give up his appointment at Columbia. He clearly didn't even research my book or my story. If he doesn't bother to research - or have his staff address important issues, he should get out of the way.

I should have expected he wouldn't know what appropriate behavior is because even Evelyn Yang (the presidential candidate Andrew Yang's wife) was abused by a Columbia Medical Doctor in NYC. If Dr. Oz was a good doctor he should have addressed the conversation about appropriate examination techniques during women's health exams. I'm tired of being ignored. It is time that this issue was addressed. I am very disappointed in him and my local news affiliate who failed to address my question, despite posting the video on their website. Their website claims it is on "Your side." I call bull $#%^. That is a joke. Kake can is full of $#%^. I should have known the News is fake and full of pointless non-medical advice. The thing is if he had said something useful, like set boundaries for women's health the heard of viewers probably would listen.

I think I'm remembering why I don't watch TV. I prefer my programing to be reality. I'm grateful I don't watch the crap they have on television.

No wonder Jeopardy contestants have gone on strike against Dr. Oz.

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Re: Growing Hope - The Gratefulness Thread

Postby Sunnyg » Tue Apr 13, 2021 2:09 am

Tonight I’m thankful for the new moon. As part of this brave time I am calling back my energy and working to disconnect from the trauma.

How can we scare Pluto?

By loving my way to healing.

What is a shadow tree that is becoming apparent and can be released permanently.

The anger for the physician is a shadow tree.

What are seeds of courage I should plant?

I’ll never love what happened and or how it impacted me and my relationship with my child, but I can be humanizing of the man who violated my sanctity. I am calling back my energy and unplug from the physician. My seed of courage is to heal without needing his assistance. Because he’s never given me love. Only sadness, and maybe some anger at times. I want more than that in my life. And to be honest my sisters card deck advised that until I’m fully healed I should not play with that card that represents betrayal.
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Re: Growing Hope - The Gratefulness Thread

Postby Sunnyg » Tue Apr 13, 2021 2:23 am

At least that is what my sister told me when I thought the song on his playlist might be for me. She said I’m delusional and it’s really more of a mantra that applies to everyone today... change the world. She doesn’t believe in my delusional hope for love.

I know I need to heal and it is likely more practical to do it without the physician... I just don’t think she understands the way my feelings are invested in nurturing my well-being using the light from him to help me connect to the love from the universe... I’m learning to ground on my own. I know I can do it. It just feels good to love.
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