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Re: The New Crisis Thread

Postby smurf » Tue Jul 10, 2018 4:42 pm

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I stuck with it today, as my care coordinator had promised to contact me today. She said she had me on her ‘to do list’ for yesterday and today. Again to call, but two emails apologising. Lack of phone support from her has added to the worthless feelings I already have. She has suggested I call the crisis team and she will call me tomorrow. What’s the point? I’m trying so hard to keep safe, but sod it. I have no fight left.
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Re: The New Crisis Thread

Postby Snaga » Wed Jul 11, 2018 2:49 am

Hugs. You say that, then you pull more fight out of yourself, and you keep on, sweetie. You've always been stronger than you think. Try and stay safe.
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Re: The New Crisis Thread

Postby TriangularLemur » Thu Jul 26, 2018 7:11 pm

Its a while since I posted on here but I think of it and all of you here every so often. I wonder how many other people do this? People do care, even if its in an I don't know you or have anything to do with your life kind of way.

:!: No one who posts here is really alone.
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Re: The New Crisis Thread

Postby smurf » Sun Aug 19, 2018 11:11 am

Overwhelming urge to kill myself
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Re: The New Crisis Thread

Postby Snaga » Wed Aug 22, 2018 4:55 am

How you feeling, Smurf? And I know it's trite, and I know I'm just a faceless person on a keyboard halfway around the planet, and I know that it's just... whatever. But. I'd appreciate it if you didn't do that, sweet pea.
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Re: The New Crisis Thread

Postby smurf » Wed Aug 22, 2018 5:21 pm

The same! I got very close last night, but stupidly or fortunately (depending on which you prefer) managed to reach out to a friend, but couldn’t talk, so hung up on her.

I’m stupid! Just wish I could do it.

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Re: The New Crisis Thread

Postby seabreezeblue » Wed Aug 22, 2018 9:09 pm

smurf wrote:fortunately


very very fortunately - i'm so glad you managed to reach out last night <3
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Re: The New Crisis Thread

Postby smurf » Fri Aug 24, 2018 11:41 am

Sorry!

Urges are really strong. The urge to act on the feelings and thoughts are incredibly strong. Found myself doing something earlier, I really shouldn’t have been doing. I’ve spent most of the morning sitting on my bed rocking. Now sitting on the stairs rocking. I’ve tried ringing CMHT and GP, pointless exercise really. Dumping stuff here hoping it will lessen the urges.
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Re: The New Crisis Thread

Postby seabreezeblue » Fri Aug 24, 2018 8:48 pm

Huge huge huge hugs to you Smurf..

You feeling any better now?

I've spent the day with my parents.. seriously and far too close to acting on something i shouldn't be acting on today.
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Re: The New Crisis Thread

Postby smurf » Sat Aug 25, 2018 11:03 pm

Urges are still very strong. Thoughts are racing. Don’t feel anything, not even numbness. I just don’t want to be alive anymore.
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