I have not heard that motivation for SH before. I've SH over angst from
causing harm (real or imagined) to others, but not out of a desire to cause harm.
These urges, are the strong urges, or are they thoughts that come into your head saying that you want to harm, or that you will harm? I have had harm-related OCD for several decades, so I'm wanting to understand more fully what you mean by
LucyTate wrote:sometimes I want to hurt people. Nothing super special, not particularly random people
It doesn't sound OCD but I thought I'd throw it out there.
Could this be coming from an alt that's belligerent within the system? I don't follow DID a whole lot, even though I
might be DDOS myself. Something I take with a large grain of salt, so I generally leave DID forum alone.