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It's all going downhill + hopefully some good aim

Postby ArchCannon » Sun May 24, 2020 1:02 am

So, yesterday I drank myself to sleep and while I was at it I relapsed. I hit rock bottom, lost everything I worked towards my whole life. I fell out of college (again). University education was what all I ever wanted and dreamed of. Because of Covid-19 (a major part in this all) I can no longer afford it anymore. I've been supported financially mainly by my parents, but because of the pandemic they noted huge losses they won't be able to do so anymore. Therefore I can't afford education anymore. Furthermore, I can't take it mentally anymore. It's been an obstacle to the point of me being unable to get through it. I know it sounds like a dumb excuse to blame my failings/shortcomings on the pandemic but it was/is a factor too great to handle for me.

On a slightly positive note, I've done research towards mental health help and finally feel ready to make the jump to put it to use, but then again, I am in no position to afford it, really. So as such, I am at a loss. I don't know what to do. I'll try to find at least some minimal wage job. This is my last tiny spark of hope.

If you have read this, great many thanks for your time and attention, this is exactly all I have left. Nothing more remains.
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Re: It's all going downhill + hopefully some good aim

Postby HSS » Sun May 24, 2020 10:35 am

Hi Archcannon,

I am sorry for your bad moment.
You know, many dreams have been broken during my life, there were painful moments sometimes.
Then I do not intend to belittle what you are passing, and even more considered that you aren't a "whiny person".

However, life is unpredictable and sometimes what looks like a tragedy today, retrospectively you can understand that it was just the beginning of a new life. Things change, it's what they always do... they change. As for the worse, as for the best.

Moreover, I don't know you very well, but my intuition/impression is that you have some inner ressources.
It's also a good idea to find a job, it's something constructive and it's good, especially now.
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