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: Hi I am Doc and a compulsive liar.
I have destroyed my relationship with the woman I love. We are not together now as we both have ailing parents.

I am so thankful for finding this forum. I am in tears. I need to overcome this so we can be together. She says she needs time and I am willing to do what's needed.

This is step 1. My heart goes out to anyone fighting this. I am miserable and lonely without her. I text her as she said that was ok but only get small answers no true conversation.

I have apologized but she says sorry doesn't cut it anymore and I don't blame her.
We both love each other, she told me this. We have to find ourselves before we can be back together. Plus me stopping the stupid lying to her.


I look forward to any help and ideas plus will help and support anyone fighting for their true love.

So I chatted with my gf last night. She needs time which I have agreed to give her for both of our sakes.

We will text in the morning and night time and that's all unless an emergency. It's the best I can do for now. She is in a lot of pain due to my coward self in lying so much. If you are a believer in prayer please include US in them.

Day 4. No lies. Not even a white lie. I will beat this!

Day 5
Sad day didn't get to talk to that all. Ignored my text messages. Was worried couldn't eat and felt.ill.

So much for needing time. She calls me today and says her new by is with her.
I guess karma but me. I have now lost the woman I was deeply in love with. Guess she wasn't as much as I thought.
Well this has been a rather sucky ending to my decade of the 10s.
I am destroyed. Heart is broken. Million jagged pieces.