by 000800085525 » Fri May 19, 2017 11:08 pm
Hi,
I had similar problem many years back, but I could concentrate on computer games. My own mother called me meat when I binge played computer games and ignored work/study/house chore etc. Now I suspect my problem was cognitive impairments due to schizoprenia + mood disorder(depression/anxiety), aka schizoaffective. One psychologist said I could be schizophrenic but I didn't believe her, because I was only aware of my cognitive impairment at the time, and I thought schizophrenics were all violent and suffer from hallucinations. But my positive symptoms were mild, I only had some delusions such as somebody stole my mind, because of my cognitive impairment, my delusion seemed logically sound. And I thought there were super humans who know what's going on in other people's head, and it's possible tell the future if I found the right method.
Years later I leant that schizoprenics have 3 major types of symptoms, they are positive, negative and cognitive. Negative symptoms are correlated to cognitive symptoms, and are predictor of loss of functions. My negative symptoms were more apparent.
I never got an official diagonosis from a professional. But I think you guys should seek help from professionals. Let them run tests on you, fMRI, hormones or neurotransmitters, etc. You may have a different problem from mine.
Unfortunately, I learnt from an article(but I forget the source), that current drugs are effective on positive symptoms ; but do little to improve cognitive functions.
I am still jobless, live alone and my home is a mess, and I have as many human contacts as a castaway. I have to check map every few minutes when navigate through unfamiliar places, while I should remember the hall mark places, I check map every block.
But I "feel" much better about myself in recent years, this feeling may not be subjective. I did simple stuff at first, like gardening, then I read books and learn mathematics,I am refilling my brain with informations. For many years, my long term and short term memories didn't work, but I could remember 7-9 digits in my working memory. I think in addition to cognitive problems, the panic and anxiety make things more difficult.