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Sometimes I hate myself

Postby ALiteralPsychopath » Sat Jan 01, 2022 11:02 am

I hate myself, why? Because I always feel like I'm faking it. Sometimes I think about things (what little I remember) from my childhood and something feels so wrong, like somethings missing. I hate it because there's no reason I should feel this way.I know I can't remember much at all but that could be for a number of reasons, but for some reason my brain defaults to *repressed memories*. I know I didn't have a 100℅ awesome childhood experience but still, I feel like I just want attention. $#%^ this is rambking. Uhm, happy new years.

Tdlr; I hate myself but when I think back I get upset and angry or wanna cry and I feel like I'm just lying. :(
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Re: Sometimes I hate myself

Postby jaus tail » Mon Jan 03, 2022 5:13 am

ALiteralPsychopath wrote:I know I didn't have a 100℅ awesome childhood experience but still, I feel like I just want attention. $#%^ this is rambking. Uhm, happy new years.

i think very few people had 100% awesome childhood experience. but i know there were many many horrible incidents in my life that shouldnt have happened.

faking it-- not sure i feel same. i just stay in my house most of the time. no real life friends as such to fake before.
i used to fake before my friends. i've stopped hanging out with my friends now. no by default the faking has stopped.
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