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Postby weepingwillow » Sat Sep 05, 2020 2:01 am

I blacked out my abuse for a very long time but had nightmares to remind me it happened. It was only wen I accepted it happened n went to police that I actually started to come to terms with it. Anyone else been thought the same thing?
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Re: Blacked out

Postby jaus tail » Sat Sep 05, 2020 6:17 am

weepingwillow wrote:I blacked out my abuse for a very long time

for me the abuse was from caretaker so i ignored it and thought maybe i am at fault. i became silent.

it was after a nervous breakdown, that i read about bpd and figured my caretaker's behavior wasnt ideal.
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Re: Blacked out

Postby Terry E. » Mon Sep 07, 2020 3:57 am

weepingwillow wrote:
but had nightmares to remind me it happened.



Did you not connect these nightmares when younger, or did the nightmares come to you are you got older, married, had children etc.
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Re: Blacked out

Postby weepingwillow » Thu Sep 10, 2020 1:42 am

Terry E. wrote:
weepingwillow wrote:
but had nightmares to remind me it happened.



Did you not connect these nightmares when younger, or did the nightmares come to you are you got older, married, had children etc.

I really didn't connect the dots until much later on

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Re: Blacked out

Postby Terry E. » Fri Sep 11, 2020 3:43 am

It is funny, in my case the emotions of fear, had no specific face to them. As I got older it was clear who it was and exactly what was going to happen. Wake with heart racing, unable to sleep again.
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