How are you today? *TW*

I havent built up the courage to email the charity yet, i think its because i know they will tell me to get assessed and if i do i will have to agree to maintain weight if i want treatment and i cant do that.
*sigh*

willow

Today hasnt been too bad. I did take lax but i managed to eat a bit n keep it down.

willow

Today has been a bit of a disaster, ive purged just about everything i ate. Feeling pretty rotten tbh but will try again tomorrow.

willow

I spent the day with my sister and nieces today because ive ran out of heating at home so ate ok and didnt purge. Im scared to weigh myself tho

willow

Weighed myself and im not happy!

My key worker rang today and i told her everything thats been going on and she has sent a referral to the eating disorder team. I explained my reservations and she asked my to just try it and see what they say so i agreed. we will see.

willow

Today has been a bit of a nightmare to be honest. Ive binged and purged all day. Its the worst day ive had in a while but i will try harder tomorrow.

willow

Yesterday and today have been a little better and i reached out to the charity for support. They sent me a very nice email and offered me a phone call next week.

willow

I got myself some porridge pots as they are small but filling and i wouldnt binge on them so i have been doing ok. Im in a lot of pain today with my back but tried to walk a little. I dont feel as guilty eating if i exercise a bit more.

willow

You would think with a bad back i would purge less but no Today hasnt been too good. i was cleaning out my food cupboard and fridge etc and ate wayyyy too much so...... I threw out everything that was left except the porridge, just for now to get me out of the cycle of binging and purging.
I spoke a bit about my eating disorder with my counsellor today, it was hard but i suppose i should get used to talking about it more instead of keeping it a secret irl.
I have a phone call tomorrow with the charity too.

willow

I had a really good talk with a woman from the charity today, she was really helpful and just listened to me. She said i may not get offered help from the ed services as theres not enough resources where i live but she said i could call her or the helpline anytime. I can also attend the support group.
Heres hoping i can get this under control once and for all!

willow