Medication Meltdown

My doctor recently mixed up my medication a few weeks back. I was taking Propanolol, Lamictal, and Clonazopam, and it was working great. However he informed me that neither of them were anti depressents, and he felt I needed to be on at least something for that. So he took out the first two, and switched them up with Risperdone and Celexa, along with keeping with the Clonazopam. Ever since then, Ive been suffering from the worst anxiety attacks, that start within 5 minutes after waking up, and lasting the entire day.

When I first picked up the prescriptions, the pharmacist informed me that with the Celexa, that there might be an increased "nervous energy" as a possible side effect. At the same time though, they said that the Clonazopam would more than counteract it, and possibly put me to sleep. Everyone who's been on Klonipin or Clonazopam, knows its a miracle worker. It will treat the worst of anxiety attacks within a matter of a half hour......I LOVE IT!!!! However since I started taking the other two, it has been completely ineffective period! I will take one in the morning, won't feel a thing. I will still have that same "nervous energy" and often times it will just make it worse.

Im not sure if it's a chemical reaction between the two, or if the Clonazopam has just stopped working all together, or is non effective with this specific medication. The other options I have considered is maybe because I heard it might come with the nervous energy, I have programmed that into my system or my train of thinking, like it's all in my head. The other option is that it might be the respridone and not the celexa.

Either way, It has completely disrupted my way of life. I will go for a walk, try to release some of that energy, but it comes along with me. I try to do some studying for school, but I cant stay focused long enough. Most of the time I will snuggle up in a blanket from the time i wake up until the afternoon, just trying to sleep it off. I find that I am no longer able to be by myself because the anxiety becomes too great, so I will go over to my sisters house for a few hours until my mom gets home. Im on short term disability from work because i was not able to function properly there either. It has completely taken over my life. What do I do? Has anyone had any similar situations? Is it the chemical interaction with each other, is it one of the medications has just stopped working, or what is it? Im desperate for answers at this point. I see my psychiatrist again next week, but I can't live another week like the past two that I have been living. What would you suggest?

Idiot, idiot, idiot! What an IDIOT!

The Propanolol and Lamictal were so ideal. Also, he took off the moodstabilizer? It didn't occur to him that the moodstabilizer was a crucial element of why the cocktail was working? It's highly probable that the Lamictal was the linch pin, he doesn't know what he's doing. Dammit, psychiatrists piss me off. I take Lamictal, by the way. Really, if I were you I'd convince him to put you back on the Lamictal.

This is what happens when you trust other people completely; people have a way of f---ing up as much as we ourselves do, so why trust anyone more than we trust ourselves? Sure, it can feel nice and safe in someone elses trusted hands, that is until they drop you into a pot of boiling water.

It seems to me that if an antidepressant is going to work for you, you're one of those --like me and many others-- who have a bad reaction to antidepressants without a moodstabilizer. Furthermore, Lamictal is frequently used to augment antidepressants, so it's a win-win.

I know you aren't supposed to give out med advise on here but quite frankly, I know what I'm doing and talking about more than your doctor does.

To wit: antidepressants often don't work when BPD, or any form of EDD is involved. Why is it glaringly obvious to me that an antidepressant will most often make ED worse, whereas an anti-epileptic has a good sporting chance of getting it under control? Yet, to many pyschs it is not? Something is wrong there.

See, he doesn't entirely understand BPD or EDD as it takes special research to do so. He's likely just going by his basic medical training. Any form of EDD, including BPD, is best come at from an angle as if it were Bipolar type II.

Don't tell him that though, he wont listen to you, you're a mere mortal. My advice is to manipulate him into putting you back onto what you were on. If anything should be eliminated in favor of an antidepressant it should have been the Propanol (but I'm not even suggesting that should be done, just sayin'). I can't believe he took off the moodstabilizer...