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never want the night to end..

Postby jaus tail » Sun Feb 09, 2020 1:34 pm

i never want the night to end... its like why does morning have to start. n then there's work. i want the night to never end... so i can be with my thoughts n be at peace...
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Re: never want the night to end..

Postby Remember Ronni » Mon Feb 10, 2020 7:03 pm

I know that feeling.....my problem, I decided not to go back to work and now I have only endless empty days ahead of me when I wake up. And it's too late now for me to go back.

Maybe you just need to alter your routine a bit - plan something each day, a run, a walk, a Mcbreakfast or something you enjoy. Or plan what you're going to do after work today.

I don't think anyone much enjoys Mondays though......
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Re: never want the night to end..

Postby jaus tail » Tue Feb 11, 2020 2:30 am

Remember Ronni wrote:I don't think anyone much enjoys Mondays though......


lol..true..

yeah if I leave work all i'll have is endless empty days. thanks for that..
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Re: never want the night to end..

Postby Skiebs » Sun Nov 01, 2020 5:40 pm

I look forward to two things everyday...

1. My Klonopin dose (Because I know the pain will subside for 3-4 hours)
2. Bed time (No more performing, No more guilt, No more shame, No more wondering what the other's in the home are thinking about you.. about how lazy you are... )

Finally a time I can focus on whatever distracts me fully (gaming, watching a video... These are in my TOP 3 ways of self-soothing and all my anxiety washes away.) Then when I lay my head down to sleep, I imagine my life in a way I wish it could be, I imagine of a woman who loves me for me, in my ups and down.. Who stands by me no matter what and fights for me and I do the same for them.. We have kids and live happily ever after... then I fall asleep peacefully.

Then I wake up... and say "$#%^, here we go again... Hold on dude"
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Re: never want the night to end..

Postby jaus tail » Thu Nov 05, 2020 5:42 am

Skiebs wrote:I
2. Bed time (No more performing, No more guilt, No more shame, No more wondering what the other's in the home are thinking about you.. about how lazy you are... )

Finally a time I can focus on whatever distracts me fully (gaming, watching a video... These are in my TOP 3 ways of self-soothing and all my anxiety washes away.) Then when I lay my head down to sleep, I imagine my life in a way I wish it could be, I imagine of a woman who loves me for me, in my ups and down.. Who stands by me no matter what and fights for me and I do the same for them.. We have kids and live happily ever after... then I fall asleep peacefully.

Then I wake up... and say "$#%^, here we go again... Hold on dude"

yeah... no more guilt, no more shame...
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