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I am caged

Postby xcagedsilhouttex » Sat Oct 20, 2018 9:58 pm

I feel trapped. In this family, bound by our secrets that no one can ever know. By this body and my distorted perceptions of it. By time constantly running away never pausing for me to catch up.

I just want to be free from everything.
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Re: I am caged

Postby vcrpamphlet » Sat Oct 20, 2018 11:17 pm

What support do you have?
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Re: I am caged

Postby solemnlysworn » Sat Oct 20, 2018 11:29 pm

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Re: I am caged

Postby Squaredonutwheels » Sun Oct 21, 2018 12:04 am

Rip out your heart and give it to the hollow man. He will set you free.
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Re: I am caged

Postby xcagedsilhouttex » Wed Oct 24, 2018 2:20 pm

vcrpamphlet wrote:What support do you have?


Not much. My only real friend says she needs to take a break from me for a while. My sponsor relapsed last weekend. My family is not supportive. I have my psychologist but to a point and it doesn't feel like actual human support but rather paid for support which feels cheap.
dx: Mixed Personality Disorder (F61)
Anorexia Nervosa (F50)
Substance Abuse (F11)

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Re: I am caged

Postby sickofbeinginvalid » Wed Oct 24, 2018 2:28 pm

xcagedsilhouttex wrote:
vcrpamphlet wrote:My only real friend says she needs to take a break from me for a while.


Doesn’t really seem like a good friend to be honest... don’t understand how people can just turn their backs on others like that. She seems selfish... I say ###$ her. We can help you on this forum!
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Re: I am caged

Postby vcrpamphlet » Fri Oct 26, 2018 4:07 pm

xcagedsilhouttex wrote:
vcrpamphlet wrote:What support do you have?


Not much. My only real friend says she needs to take a break from me for a while. My sponsor relapsed last weekend. My family is not supportive. I have my psychologist but to a point and it doesn't feel like actual human support but rather paid for support which feels cheap.


You might find some support in this neighbourhood by the looks of it.

Do meds help?
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Re: I am caged

Postby thejan » Fri Oct 26, 2018 11:15 pm

Can you move out or go away to some other place?
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Re: I am caged

Postby cutecactus » Sat Oct 27, 2018 8:08 pm

I don't know what kind of family stuff you have going on but since I've limited contact with mine to the essentials and stopped relying on them emotionally which was a disaster it's like a weight dropped off my shoulders. It sounds cheesy but maybe it can help to make a pros and cons list or something and interact with them less based on that, if that's what's dragging you down.
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