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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby IDeerInHeadlightsI » Sun Nov 22, 2020 12:54 am

Why would an ex message me to tell me that he is getting married today?

I know he is getting married but why message me about the date? I don't ######6 care. And you have had your showing off that you are getting married before me already.

I don't get this energy.
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby Julesycat44 » Thu Apr 29, 2021 6:03 am

Let down, abandoned by those who said they'd stick by me. Misunderstood and not given an opportunity to defend myself. Muzzled.
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby TheHiveMind » Tue May 25, 2021 9:45 am

Went to bed angry and in mental pain and confusion. I wake up the same and worse.

I feel used, abandoned and like a rag hung out to dry. Yet he still wants to talk, still wants a relashionship. If I hadn't had one of my stupid out bursts this would never have happned.
I feel everything. Why do I feel everything.

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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby IDeerInHeadlightsI » Mon Jul 12, 2021 10:07 pm

Watching your country go to $#%^ and there is nothing you can do about it is an experience akin to losing a family member.

Will we ever be the same again? All that talk in 2019. Everything of 2010...

Which was true, the love when things are good or the hate when we fracture?
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby TheHiveMind » Mon Jul 26, 2021 11:22 pm

Wanting someone to talk to but not wanting. Wanting a certain someone but there not here. tired after work and wanting to sleep but not sleeping. Need to complete tasks but not. I'm just everything and nothing in one go.
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby Libitina » Thu Jul 29, 2021 2:40 am

All over the place with my new (~12month) partner and our issues. Real possibility of breaking up but I think we both want to give it a shot. She means a lot to me but the situation is difficult.

Living in shared accommodation is getting to me with the instability. I have to keep this place the best I can because it's the only one I've ever been in where I can have my daughters every other weekend. And those two girls are my light and my love and my protective factors.

Waiting on the outcome of my first DSP rejection appeal which seems to be taking a while. (Centrelink hey? lol.) Without that I don't see how I can afford to still have the girls anymore. :cry:

Waiting for a letter confirming surgery for chronic pain for way, way too long after the last letter got lost -just my luck. Pain is only moderate today so I am happy for that.

Also slightly worried about how I am going to eat tonight.
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby Libitina » Fri Jul 30, 2021 3:44 am

Sad. Just incredibly sad...
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby lilyfairy » Fri Jul 30, 2021 10:44 am

Sending hugs.

Libitina wrote:Waiting on the outcome of my first DSP rejection appeal which seems to be taking a while. (Centrelink hey? lol.) Without that I don't see how I can afford to still have the girls anymore.
Be prepared for it to take a while. I went through the process about 5 years ago. My first application and two appeals were rejected. I reapplied again about three months after all that with a different doctor filling in my forms and it went through. It was a very emotionally draining process to go through. Once I did get it- I've never quite felt comfortable with calling myself disabled. I hope you get an answer back soon, and a positive one at that. Hugs.
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