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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby octopustentacles » Thu Jan 31, 2019 3:00 pm

Tired grouchy weird scattered
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby Elastic Heart » Mon Feb 11, 2019 10:41 am

So tired. Not sure if I'm sick or if it's just the late winter blues. My boyfriend is pissing me off today and I even started to feel as if leaving him would really be the best option, but then he finally cut me some slack and went out alone and now I'm feeling a bit better about it. It's so frustrating though to never know if my feelings are rational or if it's just my BPD not allowing me to be happy. Maybe we're not a good fit or maybe I'm just devaluating him; who knows, either way I know I'm going to regret it like crazy if I act on it, but staying means being miserable too. BPD is such a fun ride! /s

Maybe I'll go visit my mum or something. Take the dog for a walk, get some mountain therapy. God, there aren't enough mountains here. That, and then get a bottle of wine for later; I've been drinking more than usual lately but honestly that doesn't mean much as the past couple of years I've gone months between each time, and frankly a little wine works wonders to take the edge off.
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby Vonmonj » Wed Feb 20, 2019 5:16 pm

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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby octopustentacles » Wed Feb 20, 2019 7:56 pm

Alone and terrible.
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby star dust » Tue Mar 05, 2019 11:36 pm

Well hello there psych forums... it’s been a while...
I feel like utter $#%^. My brain is really broke.
I always forget this place exists. It’s weird. I always write posts and then forget I’ve written them.
I am not good right now. I’ve not been good for a really long time ha
But my mind has really broken into several pieces which I’m having trouble putting together and can’t even put together because it hurts so much to remember
Ughh
Help me

-- Tue Mar 05, 2019 11:38 pm --

And I’m really really sad. I’m so sad, I am hurting so bad inside but unable to release any of it.
It hurrtttttttttsssssssssssssssssssssssss
It hurts so bad.
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby octopustentacles » Tue Mar 12, 2019 3:02 pm

I dont think I belong on the bpd forum anymore. I have 0 empathy for others nowadays. I dont know what went wrong but something did.
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby octopustentacles » Wed Mar 13, 2019 3:05 am

I come out to go to bed in my pjs and someone is banging on my door ( i sleep in my living room). I answer cuz i figure it must be an emergency and this new bitch neighbor of mine is getting all kinds of #######5 with me about " banging from my apt. "

Im so caught off guard because I am not only in my pajamas but i have no idea what the hell she is even talking about.

Tomorrow when im actually wearing clothes im going to tell her never to come banging on my door in the middle of the night like that.

These apartments suck. They arent soundproofed at all and you can hear everything but thats not my fault. Dumb bitch. She is probably a crackhead.
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby octopustentacles » Sat Mar 16, 2019 4:22 pm

octopustentacles wrote:I dont think I belong on the bpd forum anymore. I have 0 empathy for others nowadays. I dont know what went wrong but something did.



Actually I dont think this is true. It might really dwindle when im pissed. I spend too much time on the internet.
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby jessicaborthwick » Sun Mar 17, 2019 1:34 am

overwhelmed...……... by the voices in my head wanting me to stab people and hurt them. they want me to kill my husband to they dislike him the most.
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby Trelkovsky » Mon Mar 18, 2019 8:51 pm

really tired. I almost got hit by a car earlier crossing the street, yikes, oops. So I had some adrenaline.
And I sent a humiliating email twelve hours ago which I'm awaiting a response to so I guess scared, bored, impatient, alive, very tired.
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