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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby octopustentacles » Fri Dec 28, 2018 1:17 am

Stressed. Sometimes I wish I had someone to talk to but then it hits me I hate everyone anyways so who cares. I dont keep friends. I have my mom but shes busy nowadays with stuff. And she told me the other day Ive been doing nothing but whining since I was a teenager.
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby cutecactus » Sat Dec 29, 2018 9:03 am

Tired
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Postby RamadanSteve » Tue Jan 01, 2019 9:38 pm

octopustentacles wrote:Stressed. Sometimes I wish I had someone to talk to but then it hits me I hate everyone anyways so who cares. I dont keep friends. I have my mom but shes busy nowadays with stuff. And she told me the other day Ive been doing nothing but whining since I was a teenager.


Sounds like you've been doing nothing but whining since you were a teenager
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby xcagedsilhouttex » Fri Jan 04, 2019 8:38 pm

I am all bruised inside and life is a constant nightmare. Nothing gets better. It's all just lies that your brain feeds you to keep you living. I can't keep waking up to this. There is nothing left.
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby scharah » Tue Jan 08, 2019 12:39 pm

xcagedsilhouttex wrote:I am all bruised inside and life is a constant nightmare. Nothing gets better. It's all just lies that your brain feeds you to keep you living. I can't keep waking up to this. There is nothing left.


yup, exactly how i feel right now. well, most of the time. don't understand why i bother to do anything at all.
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby Elastic Heart » Thu Jan 17, 2019 8:18 pm

I'm so tired and I'm tired of being so damn tired. It shouldn't be this hard, I shouldn't need to have my stress levels through the roof on a day to day basis. I can't just get a break on anything, can I. The only relief is to deliberately zombify myself into dissociation. I'm exhausted of living like this and goddamnit I've been PMSing and sorta bleeding for over a week now and it's so darn late, I can't even have a goddamn menstrual cycle like a normal person. Yeah I know, it's almost definitely related to the whole stress ordeal, but still. Can't get a break on anything. Not sure if I'm hungry, horny or just enraged. A bit of everything, I suppose.

Lol sorry about the TMI for you poor bastards who actually read this. :lol:
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby octopustentacles » Sun Jan 20, 2019 10:16 pm

Tired. I keep thinking im going to have a heart attack from not sleeping. Im having shortness of breath and chest pains regularly now. My dad had a heart attack young. he said it was from working constantly and not sleeping. Ive got the not sleeping part down.


Idk. Ive been missing someone from FB, even though I havent been on FB in 5 years or something.

Sure im either long forgotten or disliked. Thats always the case.

I havent had any online interactions where i wasnt either very drunk, very hungover or just insane. :|

Probably for the best i never remember anything anyways.
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby octopustentacles » Tue Jan 22, 2019 7:59 pm

Interacting with others makes me a nervous wreck and gives me a headache for the most part. No wonder i dont do it.

Unfortunately you cant really get through life never talking to anyone.
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby octopustentacles » Thu Jan 24, 2019 10:32 pm

Frustrated. About. Stuff.
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Postby OrbweaverLeads » Mon Jan 28, 2019 7:20 am

irritated, frustrated and angry, struggling with the urge to burn bridges because I am craving the relief I think that will give
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