And guess what? After I recovered so fine and stopped eating my antidepressants some months ago, and even started to go out with guys (something I couldn't do before) I have cut my hair again to an ugly short hairstyle!!!

I feel so angry at myself of what I've done. I mean, I'm 24 years old and things were going well for me. I looked fine four weeks ago and finally got to feel what ut feels like to kiss a man and to have someone's arms around my body. I finally got compliments and got to know how it feels to be wanted by someone. But then I cut of every aspect that felt good in my life - the guys who were attracted to me, my well being and that feeling of feeling sexy/goodlooking. I miss that so much. Now I look like $#%^. My family tries to tell me it's "just hair" and nothing to feel concerned about, but I seriously can't stop caring about it being to short and ugly as it's completely linked to my wellbeing. I don't find my myself pretty anymore so therefore I can't feel happy. I just can't. I try to change my way of thinking, i seriously do as Im trying to fight the BDD- monster i side of me who tells me every day that I have to care, that this is the most inportant thing to me, but it's so hard seriously. I mean, why shouldn't I care? The haircut is on me and it looks unsexy and ugly to my face which also will make men uninrerested in me. So therefore it's totally important business to me. But seriously it breaks me inside to not be able to date anymore or to meet men. I think i look so ugly i cant even give them eye contact anymore so it really sucks to have a bad haircut.
Can anyone relate to this experience of having a bad haircut that ruins your wellbeing and stopping you from living the way you want to live?