realizing a lot of my acting out is seeking comfort. for healing purposes, I really need to unpack this and start finding comfort in new ways - or even better - embracing DISCOMFORT

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0TKPTVbH6oU

Hold me by your generous spirit...

Feels good to have made a bunch of posts on this forum. Breathing out my internal held darkness, sharing it so it can see the light. Hoping it can transmute and lessen my needs and obsessions.

I hate him because I have not been able to break free of the programming and the mold that he inflicted on me. His weaknesses and addictions and personality traits rubbed off on me. And I can't break free. I hate my father for imprisoning me with his darkness.

I commit to healing my addictions. I choose to transcend limitations and become the best version of my myself.