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| Author: | wasp_rainbowarrior [ Mon Jan 16, 2017 8:27 pm ] |
| Blog Subject: | sensuality and sensibility |
yesterday late night i sneaked out to have sex with a guy. not totally stranger, since i'd talked to him for a long time before, but stranger enough. let him do things to me that i knew i hated. i believe i'm dangerously dissociating from my bodily experiences. my mental state remained unaltered before, during and after the sex and always focusing on things that are not there - songs i like, music i've played and reminiscences of past experiences. did not feel pleasure even though i reached orgasm. while i was on top of him after sex i was totally indifferent to his presence and thinking without emotional disturbance "what a shame, maybe i could have spent 2017 entirely without sex". even now i feel nothing towards that experience. indeed, i don't recall feeling any emotions for the past days. i think my feelings shut down after my intense suffering that i blogged about last week. that is why i felt like i was ok even if continuing with sexual behavior usually compulsive. it was compulsive, but didn't feel like it. |
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| Author: | Snaga [ Tue Jan 17, 2017 10:44 am ] |
(((hugs))) |
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