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		document.write('<div style="font-size: 1.1em; margin-bottom: 5px;"><a href="javascript:void(0)" onclick="if(document.getElementById(\'b_15515\').style.display == \'none\'){document.getElementById(\'b_15515\').style.display=\'block\';}else{document.getElementById(\'b_15515\').style.display=\'none\';}if(this.style.background.search(\'https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/min_dark_blue.gif\') != -1){this.style.background = \'url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/max_dark_blue.gif)\'; this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';}else{this.style.background = \'url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/min_dark_blue.gif)\'; this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';}" onmouseover="this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';" onmouseout="this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 0px\';" style="margin: 5px 3px 0 3px; float: left; background-image: url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/max_dark_blue.gif); background-position: 0px, 0px; width: 12px; height: 12px;" /><a href="https://www.psychforums.com/blog/OMNICELL/im_a_recovery_person_b-15515.html">Im a recovery person</a></div><div id="b_15515" style="display: none; padding: 5px 5px 2px 15px; font-size: 0.9em; border-bottom: 1px dotted #DDDDDD;">New Identity;  <br />Very simple.<br />.<br />Im a recovery person; <br />. <br />I live in a little recovery apartment;  <br />I have my plastic model kits<br />I have my mountain bike<br />I attend recovery meetings<br />I have a recovery sponsor… <br />I have a higher power <br />Im on permanent mental disability… <br />Ive had problems in the past with substance abuse;  Enough;  not to be a visitor to the meetings but a member;  But just barely;  but still enough!  Dual diagnosed with addictions and mental problems.  Allot more on the “ Mental problems”  side of things; but I still abused substances for relief… <br />.<br />I go from here…  forward;  and learn a new design for living.    <br />I use allot of the words and thoughts and phrasing and ideas and wisdom from other members;  I use the books associated with the recovery fellowships I attend to learn how to live again in a practical day to day way within this simple life style.   It is what it is…  <br />.<br />.<br />Note;  its from this platform of recovery that I excel back into regular life.   <br />Im not trying to “ Take a little time off from regular life”;  to find myself in the recovery process;  recover for 2 weeks and claim Im back to middle class life or job or something;  That does not work for me.    And its not a true statement.   The trust is;   Im in the recovery life identity for life; as life; this is my foundation; and it is where I start from.   I don’t get to claim Im a big business man or lawyer  or vise president of the Bank… and Im just taking a break for a few months.   <br />.<br />When I talk to people;   I tell them the truth;   I live a very simple recovery life style.   And I have mental problems that do not go away.   It makes life hard to be in reality on a daily basis.    <br />.<br />I have problems with people stalking me in the 12 meetings that I have to take care of.  I don’t want to; but I have to face these problems.  Im praying about it right now!  <br />.<br />I have support for my general recovery.   I haven&#039;t been to therapists in a long time;   However;  from the trails of everyday life and dealing with stalkers;  Ive been suicidal for the last several months;  and I havent known how to fix any of this yet!</div>');
		
		document.write('<div style="font-size: 1.1em; margin-bottom: 5px;"><a href="javascript:void(0)" onclick="if(document.getElementById(\'b_15514\').style.display == \'none\'){document.getElementById(\'b_15514\').style.display=\'block\';}else{document.getElementById(\'b_15514\').style.display=\'none\';}if(this.style.background.search(\'https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/min_dark_blue.gif\') != -1){this.style.background = \'url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/max_dark_blue.gif)\'; this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';}else{this.style.background = \'url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/min_dark_blue.gif)\'; this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';}" onmouseover="this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';" onmouseout="this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 0px\';" style="margin: 5px 3px 0 3px; float: left; background-image: url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/max_dark_blue.gif); background-position: 0px, 0px; width: 12px; height: 12px;" /><a href="https://www.psychforums.com/blog/OMNICELL/the_new_message_from_god_concerning_women%C7%83_b-15514.html">The new message from God concerning women!</a></div><div id="b_15514" style="display: none; padding: 5px 5px 2px 15px; font-size: 0.9em; border-bottom: 1px dotted #DDDDDD;">The new message from God concerning women!  <br />.<br />Its time to move on… <br />Move on from where Im at concerning women;   Time to go to new ponds..  new lakes to fish for what I want… <br />The women Im around don’t like me.  Im not liked by any of them…   Its time to move on…  I wont find what Im looking for within these groups of people.  <br />.<br />Ill have to go out into the world working with God to find the tribe of women that might be interested in me.  <br />.<br />I want to be around people that will miss me if they don’t see me or;  or actually want to spend time with me because its of interest to them;  or excitement.   Meaning;  they are actually interested in me… <br />.<br />Im not liked by the people Im around;  the groups of people Im in;  no women like me.  Im not liked by them.   They show no respect of any kind or interest;  nothing…  Its time to leave. <br />. <br />.<br />.<br />THE GOALS:    <br />A Network of chosen friends for the purpose of support for my dating developmental interests under God.   Im working with God to pic people I can call and talk with as I go through this process to find the right type of people for my future relationships..   <br />.<br />.<br />Everything is under Gods care… <br />.<br />Ill have a new group of people for support and Ill be moving outward in my views of direction concerning what Im looking for… <br />. <br />Im trusting God;  God is getting me out of the places ive been habitating  in the recovery process; for I am finding no one in these places to date;  its actually dangerous;   Ive been “ played”  and fooled so many times;   conned; lied to; or “ let on”.     Its given me the conclusion;  none of these people want me around;  Im not liked by these women… non of them; for any reason; I have no future with those people.   These people don’t like me… <br />. <br />God created scenarios for me to see the truth;  I have and Im moving on.   <br />. <br />I do not know where Im moving on to;  But God has brought some ideas into my mind;  ideas of more introverted educated women;   bashful women;  women interested in the Arts and Sciences at high levels..  <br />. <br />Its unfortunate one cannot attract everyone.   But Im not.    The people Im around right now see no value in my internal self;  nothing.  And I think Even God is alarmed at it;  I certainly am. <br />. <br />To hate someone for no reason or cause as I am being;  it has a bad ring to it. Its not some place I want to visit or habitat;   Ive tried;   God is moving me on…   <br />.<br />Im done with these people;  Ive had enough;   I cant imagine anyone with any decency having anything to do with these people…   Ive awakened because of God;   I have plans with God to meet other people from other walks of like…  <br />.<br />These people right now in the places I visit have no appreciation for me.   I wont be missed and Im not liked.  <br />. <br />I am waking up to my own humanity again.    <br />. <br />What ever God has chosen for me; is certainly not in these places Im at now!  <br />. <br />So… <br />. <br />NOTE: <br />Ive never had a Girlfriend;  ever!  <br />.<br />I never developed.   I had a girl I liked in the second grade; I took her to the dog show.. And that is the last of it.   <br />Im an old man now.   Nowhere did anything dealing with the opposite sex get developed; it never has been.  I was never noticed and just ignored by any group of hopeful prospective type people; I was never seen;  just ghosted or ignored completely. <br />. <br />Now;  God is helping me develop in this area;  its all under God and I must listen and learn from God for my directions and support.</div>');
		
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		document.write('<div style="font-size: 1.1em; margin-bottom: 5px;"><a href="javascript:void(0)" onclick="if(document.getElementById(\'b_15511\').style.display == \'none\'){document.getElementById(\'b_15511\').style.display=\'block\';}else{document.getElementById(\'b_15511\').style.display=\'none\';}if(this.style.background.search(\'https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/min_dark_blue.gif\') != -1){this.style.background = \'url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/max_dark_blue.gif)\'; this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';}else{this.style.background = \'url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/min_dark_blue.gif)\'; this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';}" onmouseover="this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';" onmouseout="this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 0px\';" style="margin: 5px 3px 0 3px; float: left; background-image: url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/max_dark_blue.gif); background-position: 0px, 0px; width: 12px; height: 12px;" /><a href="https://www.psychforums.com/blog/OMNICELL/wife%3B_family%3B_children%3B_marriage.._b-15511.html">Wife;  Family;  Children;   Marriage..</a></div><div id="b_15511" style="display: none; padding: 5px 5px 2px 15px; font-size: 0.9em;">GOALS:   <br />I have several Goals and they are aligned with God.<br />. <br />Wife;  Family;  Children;   Marriage.. <br />House<br />Car<br />Music room or studio/drum room; Drumming <br />Money; <br />.<br />Activities; <br />The ability to have full functioning back to create in;  Music;  Art: Writing…  And performing.  The ability to learn guitar or play it as a main or secondary instrument…  <br />.<br />Mountain biking;   Having this back and up to speed.  <br />.<br />Occupation<br />Vacation <br />Education <br />Hobbies<br />Callings <br />Purposes…   <br />. <br />Where am I at in all of these goals. <br />. <br />First;  Many of the ACTIVITY goals are completed that needed restoration; In fact; I have nothing I need to report right now concerning Activities;   Im function well in all areas right now under Gods care concerning Activities.   <br />. <br />Relationships; <br />What has been accomplished…. <br />.<br />1.   General friends;  Guy friends;  Yes;  Im back;  its not perfect but almost together; well on my way…<br />2.  Im also able to be resourceful and meet new friends and make new friends; it takes work but Im much more able; or spontaneous with new people.<br />.<br />3.  <br />.<br />.<br />.<br />..<br />.<br />.<br />.<br /><br />Im working on the next segment of my goals right now;   Relationships.  Im working on finding a wife;    when I find her she will be my interest then my friend and girlfriend and go from there.   So. <br />. <br />Question;  What am I looking for right now to accomplish; what is my goal;  GIRLFRIEND… Romantic Girlfriend…  complete. That is my number one goal right now.   Anything less in this category; and it wont do…   it has to be complete….   That is my goal and number one goal right now.  Im now in the age or time of having and finding that girlfriend… <br />.<br /><br />What I want in a women;  2025<br />. <br />History;  Ive attracted beautiful women all my life;  since age 19. These are women in looks between 8-10.   Ive had 10’s before.   Its been this way all my life.    Im an old man now.     <br />. <br />Its done no good to be one of these guys who attracts these women.  All I ever wanted was a girlfriend that liked me or missed me or choose’d me;  they liked me for who I am and what I meant to them.   <br />. <br />Meaning;  I meant something to them;  They wanted to see me when they got up in the morning;  because I meant something to them;  or;  they would miss me in their heart and soul. <br />. <br />I wanted a womens heart.   Its never happened;  Unfortunately; Ive had everything else; every mans fantasy;  10000000  times…  <br />. <br />Guys like me attracted everyone everywhere I went.   Id did me no good;  It just freaked me out.  <br />. <br />The problem is;  I could have anyone every man dreams of or is attracted to;  But no one that actually sincerely liked me;  someone whom I one their heart and they naturally wanted to hang out with me because we are best friends to go with it.  <br />.<br />As an old man;  It dies;  the physical attraction from women;  Its still here but nothing like when I was a younger man… And thats OK.   <br />. <br />    1. Ive had 10000000 girls like me;  All the most beautiful girls of any community;  but no one that liked me as a person;   no one.  SO;   I could sleep with these girls anytime I want or marry them;  but after awhile;  why bother;  their behavior is so atrocious;  whats the point… They are literally relational Pathological..  They violate basic boundaries that let me know someone is safe or dangerous.  They are spoiled and think they are above the normal rules of interaction when it comes to courting someone or dating or romance..   And very  quickly I have no value for them..   They are weirdos in my opinion;  and literally act retarded out of line.  They are bossy idiots who think they are above moral societal laws.   They want to be the center of attention.   <br />       Ive had a few psychopaths that look like the old style miss Universe;  When the requirements was looks for them to win.   They seemed sincere;  but; what is the point.   Why would I want to go out with a psychopath for;  for what!   <br />. <br />In a real sense; Ive had no one;  Ive never had a girlfriend;  not in the traditional sense because I never went ou...<br /> <br /> <a href="https://www.psychforums.com/blog/OMNICELL/wife%3B_family%3B_children%3B_marriage.._b-15511.html" class="postlink-local">[ Continued ]</a></div>');
		
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