var title = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum Blogs Feed';
		var url = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/view/random_blogs_sid-d0521ff60e10829e8bf6cdeeae25a577.html';
		var site_url = 'https://www.psychforums.com';
		var site_desc = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum';
		var time = 'Tue, 01 Jul 2025 03:08:01 -0400';

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		data[0]['title'] = 'Thurs 24 November';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Just+Jeff/thurs_24_november_b-10463_sid-d0521ff60e10829e8bf6cdeeae25a577.html';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Just+Jeff/thurs_24_november_b-10463_sid-d0521ff60e10829e8bf6cdeeae25a577.html';
		data[0]['username'] = 'Just Jeff';
		data[0]['blog_id'] = '10463';
		data[0]['blog_message'] = '7 days sober<br />RR 100%<br />Another morning blog entry and another sober day to report which is great and have now built up a week of sobriety as a starting base. The last 2 relapses have happened around 25-30 days of sobriety so that is a period I need to be extra vigilant of. Off to work today, a few things to do but I&#039;m reasonably on top of things at the moment, just have a general build up of tiredness over the week that I need to be aware of and think about each thing I say at work before opening my mouth.<br />Going to another 12 step meeting tomorrow night.';
		data[0]['blog_time'] = 'Thu, 24 Nov 2016 03:03:20 -0500';
		

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		data[1]['title'] = 'Pencils and post-its';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Koshka69/pencils_and_postits_b-305_sid-d0521ff60e10829e8bf6cdeeae25a577.html';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Koshka69/pencils_and_postits_b-305_sid-d0521ff60e10829e8bf6cdeeae25a577.html';
		data[1]['username'] = 'Koshka69';
		data[1]['blog_id'] = '305';
		data[1]['blog_message'] = 'Today started off with a bang... got up at 6am and spent the morning doing a ton of class admin. Created word docs for everything for the semester so when things are due all I have to do is open the doc and start typing away.  Have found this saves a lot of time and gives me this mindset that I&#039;m ahead of the game.  Not having to start from scratch with everything seems to save lots of time.  Think I&#039;m beginning to become a pro at being a student  <img src="https://www.psychforums.com/images/smilies/icon_razz.gif" alt=":P" title="Razz" /> <br /><br />Once I finish all my admin I&#039;ll take a break then do a bit of class reading then put the books down at noon and go to the pool for my daily hour of lounge lizard tanning... WOOHOO!<br /><br />Nothing in particular planned beyond that.  Having my new electro-grill has sent me into a huge kick of wanting seared meats... marinated some chicken and turkey overnight, so my mouth&#039;s already watering for my evening grill session.<br /><br />Back to ze books.....  <img src="https://www.psychforums.com/images/smilies/icon_wink.gif" alt=":wink:" title="Wink" />';
		data[1]['blog_time'] = 'Sat, 09 Jul 2011 09:37:03 -0400';
		

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		data[2]['title'] = 'binge 10/05/2018';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/bringspearls/binge_10052018_b-12095_sid-d0521ff60e10829e8bf6cdeeae25a577.html';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/bringspearls/binge_10052018_b-12095_sid-d0521ff60e10829e8bf6cdeeae25a577.html';
		data[2]['username'] = 'bringspearls';
		data[2]['blog_id'] = '12095';
		data[2]['blog_message'] = 'why did this happen?<br />- i was feeling very anxious about last night<br />- i felt i had consumed too much sugar last night<br />- i felt bad about my writing<br />- there was chocolate in the house, &amp; cheese<br />- perhaps i was tired or hungover<br />- i was hungry &amp; did not know what my next meal would be<br />- i felt anxious about the future<br /><br />two of these stand out: the anxiety, which had me in a black, erratic mood &amp; needing comfort, &amp; the hunger &amp; absence of planned meals. perhaps if i had planned my meals today like i did yesterday - which even then was a fairly impetuous, last-minute process - i could have prevented the binge. it did seem that i was likely to binge yesterday until i made plans. remember this.<br /><br />i don&#039;t know what can be done about the anxiety though. i need to find a different, less harmful way of comforting myself or of working things through. i tried talking about what i was feeling to j but w/o success. why was it unsuccessful? i don&#039;t really remember what we said. i think he takes this slightly hectoring intense tone when he is telling me good things about myself. it makes me uncomfortable, esp when i don&#039;t believe the things anyway';
		data[2]['blog_time'] = 'Thu, 10 May 2018 10:51:15 -0400';
		

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		data[3]['title'] = 'the diary of jane';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/morgangage/the_diary_of_jane_b-4589_sid-d0521ff60e10829e8bf6cdeeae25a577.html';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/morgangage/the_diary_of_jane_b-4589_sid-d0521ff60e10829e8bf6cdeeae25a577.html';
		data[3]['username'] = 'morgangage';
		data[3]['blog_id'] = '4589';
		data[3]['blog_message'] = 'Everything is about to be okay now. This song is by the 0C Supertones its called &quot;Tonight&quot;. Please ignore the part about sheep and goats slit upon the threshing floor. More Christian music to come.   http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=5qxcTCyO3nQ';
		data[3]['blog_time'] = 'Sun, 28 Apr 2013 00:56:55 -0400';
		

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		data[4]['title'] = 'Strong enough to see reality!';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/OMNICELL/strong_enough_to_see_reality%C7%83_b-12016_sid-d0521ff60e10829e8bf6cdeeae25a577.html';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/OMNICELL/strong_enough_to_see_reality%C7%83_b-12016_sid-d0521ff60e10829e8bf6cdeeae25a577.html';
		data[4]['username'] = 'OMNICELL';
		data[4]['blog_id'] = '12016';
		data[4]['blog_message'] = 'Im in this small town;  Im ending up much like the day I got here; alone!  no friends!  nothing!  I know a few people from the 12 step groups Ive gone to;  not much more;  Its a closed place!  you can sit outside the neighborhoods and be all alone;  never see anything or anyone;  its a closed place!  <br />. <br /><br />.<br />The people in this small town; the ones Ive met; typical little town like you see in the old movies!  <br />. <br />I never fit in here!  <br />. <br />However,  strongly enough,  I finish here much like I started!  accept Im better off!  Im alive.<br />.<br />Where do I go from here;  I dont know;  I will work with God on this!  <br />God wanted to keep me alive;  I had to deal with mental health issues;  I still have them;  Im more used to them now!  <br />. <br />As for women;  Nothing!  <br />. <br />Ive never really known any women in this town; they&#039;ve been closed off to those with more money!  Ive been apart of nothing!  ITs as if I dont exist!  <br /> .<br />So,  I have to work with God and find out what will make me happy in my life!  I assume their will never be any women!  its a pipe dream!  thats how I see it!  I can continue to work on it!  <br />. <br />Most of the women Ive met are stuck up;  you couldn&#039;t get near them!  <br />. <br />I never knew as a child it would be like this!  <br />. <br />I have to remember;  I have mental health issues and no one is interested in me!  I couldn&#039;t work!  Im not suggesting its over completely for me!  However,  Ive never had a girlfriend!  Ive never had anyone take notice of me!  and no one cares!  <br />. <br />I do allot of thinking and imagining!  Ive imagined that women like me;  Ive imagined a whole world within my head!  In the real world;  non of this exists!  no one liked me or saw me for who I am!  Im not sure the people I thought liked me;  Im not sure they were ever thinking about me in the first place!  Im not sure they were ever thinking any positive thoughts about me!  <br />. <br />I would see a women;  she was attractive;  she would come up and talk to me because she wanted something;  I would assume she liked me! I would become defensive and ignore her! I would not trust her!  later,  much later,  when I felt safe;  I might attempt to say hello;  but this time she writes me off!  I may see her still, at a later date!  I pull her to the side and talk to her!  she&#039;s shallow and says nothing deep!  later, I see her,  she seems arrogant;  and this is the women I think likes me!  I have no idea if this women thinks anything of me!  I realize;  this women has not really shown any interest in me!  In my mind; I want to create the situation that she does;  in my mind!  in reality;  nothing like this exists;  she&#039;s not a friend of mine;  never was;  never will be!  <br /> <br />.<br />Im finally coming out of this process and understanding where I am and what has happened;  just another dissociate dream;  Im lucky I have something to eat!  <br />.<br />In this small town;  Ive gone through therapist that through me away;  no conscious about it;  nothing!  dont care!  They think Im worthless or scum!  welcome to small towns!  <br />.<br />What I see in my head;  others dont!  Im in my own world!  Im not accepted;  Im not noticed!  <br />. <br />Where do I go from here!  I dont know!  I have to work with God on this;  use the laws of attraction!  <br />. <br />Ive asked God;  is their no women anywhere that could like me!  no one?  Ive called out to the universe to bring them to me;  nothing!  dry as an oyster bed!  nothing!  could the universe not find one person on planet earth that could like me!  no one?  <br />.<br />My social skills are not good!  it takes me several months to get used to a person before I feel safe!  its very hard in the beginning  breaking the ice with someone!  <br />.<br />I dont know any quality people!  the people in the 12 step groups; I dont know them!  not really! Im a stranger their!  they dont know me and dont care!  <br /> <br />.<br />Ive gone to these recovery rooms for recovery;  not socializing!  socializing in these places never worked for me;  I never wanted to be their;  I had no other place to go!  <br />. <br />I seriously feel like...<br /> <br /> <a href="https://www.psychforums.com/blog/OMNICELL/strong_enough_to_see_reality%C7%83_b-12016_sid-d0521ff60e10829e8bf6cdeeae25a577.html" class="postlink-local">[ Continued ]</a>';
		data[4]['blog_time'] = 'Fri, 13 Apr 2018 06:12:20 -0400';