Neat, I'm gone for a week, come back to find a blog. Now ALL of us can pretend everyone gives a $4*+ about every little detail of our lives!!

Nah, I'm just going to use this to record thoughts on my would-be "treatment" because I have a seriously short memory span. If anyone's reading this...well, hello.

Two things on my mind this week: One, my Case Manager met my mother a couple weeks ago and I finally got to talk to her about it. She actually expressed SURPRISE at how negative my mother is. in other words, I haven't been exaggerating. LO AND BEHOLD I'M NOT FULL OF BS. Yeah. So it's nice to see that it's not just me. (Furthermore the CM supports my moving away, which I didn't expect, so that's also good. Time to cut the apron strings.)

Two, I got suddenly very upset one night because I realized I don't know/remember why my last relationship ended. Like, I don't know. This is seriously confusing for me. I have a very limited emotional memory clearly. So I spent a lot of this week sad and upset for something I should probably know better about, but can't for the life of me figure out why.

Also, I've had a splitting headache for literally a week now and I don't know why. I'm actually genuinely concerned there is something physically wrong with me. So how do I deal? Ignoring it.

Oh, I also started taking my topamax again. Mostly because I want to lose some weight. Good reason, huh? It's not helping my headache, clearly.

Oh, and I got a job.

Also I move to the other side of the country next week. Nobody else knows it's a "move", they think it's just a "visit". But it's a move.

Exciting life.

Change alone is eternal, perpetual, immortal. - Schopenhauer
good luck with everything!

Having trouble to remember things is a side effect of Topamax. My psychiatrist used to call it "Stupimax" or "Dopamax" for that very reason.