Struggling with anger & wanting to lash out today. In order not to lash out, I shut down & get very quiet. Even though I’m not talkative to begin with, I feel like me getting very quiet is noticeable & uncomfortable to those around me. I’m no longer being the good little enabler they’re accustomed to.

I’m worried about my cat. He has stomatitis & needs to have dental surgery to begin extracting his teeth to remedy the situation. I have another cat that had teeth extracted for decay by a previous vet (she was given to me in that condition by a sibling) & she is perfectly fine now, but I worry about him.

The veterinarian has performed teeth extraction for stomatitis in another family member’s feline, but this other cat is still suffering with the condition & has to be on prednisone, which causes a whole host of other problems. I worry that maybe I should be taking my cat to another vet to avoid a similar fate.

The truth is, there’s no way of knowing the outcome until it happens. I have less control over the situation than I would like. I can make what I think is the best decision & it can still turn out badly. We’ve moved, we no longer have access to our previous vet & that’s just the way it is.

What does any of this have to do with Anger Management??? Maybe I’m just pissed at the world & need any excuse I can lay my clammy paws on. I only really care about the cats & I feel helpless. I can’t even take care of myself some days, but humans are so much more needlessly complicated. Cats are simple.