so i thought i would start an online journal to go with my journals i am doing at home.
I'm not sure totally why but i do find that typing on the internet gives me a distance that i dont have when i write by hand. I am often mared by pain writing by hand and its better when typing.

There is a part of me that is screaming not to write on the internet for fear of people knowing who i am but another parts screams get over yourself! your not that interesting!

I have found myself answering myself in different tones of voice of late- weird but o so funny when others are around!

We lost a new member of our animal family tonight - neville. Yes some may of seen only a fish, an angel fish but i saw a beautiful piece of nature, as i see in everything from snails to elephants.
we took him on from a local fish sop , he had swim bladder but we took him anyway but from day one he went down hill. He kept looking at me today for the first time...i say he but he was a she. She just kept checking me.... like she saw me for the first time...

anyway we miss her very much, very very much in 7 days she had become part of the family- thats impressive for a fish.