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Author:  rehtnap [ Fri Sep 23, 2016 6:18 pm ]
Blog Subject:  annoyed
my solicitor told me that what the police did was supposed to intimidate me.to put the frighteners on me after they failed to make a sexual risk order stick and couldnt keep me tagged.i dont like that,i dont like it one bit i dont get intimidated. all it took was a night of saying nothing then 3 months of keeping under their radar which isnt hard and they got bored and de arrested me.its funny to me that the thing that would have grounded me,the risk order,had all but one of the requests refused and the only thing they were allowed to do was tagg me.the tag was actually a huge problem i thought i was going to be stuck with it for a minimum of 2 years and i couldnt carry out my mission with that thing on. those magistrates are my best friends or gulable, i personaly go for the second option.i think if they went back for it reinstating they would get what they want but they wont risk it as they had to withdraw lastime as my solicitor was better than theirs.the court must have thought i was sweet and inocent, if only they knew what i know.you know i thought they had finally found a way to ground me when i got the tagg and i just accepted i was stuck with it.it was the solicitor i went to just to ask what i had to do in court when i had to go back to have the order made full who got all giddy and said he could get the order resinded.he was only bothered about getting one over on the police i could have murdered 5 people and he wouldnt have cared as long as he could beat the order. so i sat back and let him do his thing.i think im the only person to have beaten one of these orders and made them remove it.god i love the law,you can be guilty as sin but technicalities get you off.
Author:  rehtnap [ Tue Sep 20, 2016 5:56 pm ]
Blog Subject:  back
what a strange time ive had. lost the plot totally earlier in the year and shortly after been 136 sectioned for a day i got arrested by the serious crime squad for gbh with intent. Was all a bit strange as they didnt have a person i was supposed to have hurt.spent a night in the nick being interviewed then released on bail. i spent 3 months on bail before they rang and told me i was released from bail effectivly de arresting me and going away.all that stress for nothing.im going to find a new private psychiatrist to get a new diagnosis as i think the last one got it wrong. over the past week or two ive started to climb hyper like i used to and if im right that will continue for a few months.i came off the meds he had me on and i began to feel a lot better.he diagnosed me when i was on the mental ward but i was doped up all day every day so when he said hed seen no signs of being hyper or mood climbing he wouldnt have i was so doped down. now the meds are out my system i feel like im returning to how i used to be.i dont know why i got such a bad attitude towards him ive never been like that to anyone else and i knew i didnt mean it but it just came out and wasnt really me. i still belive he changed the diagnosis to personality disorder so he could get me out of his clinic as they dont treat that there.i was diagnosed years ago with cyclothimia bordering on bipolar and i still stick with that as a more accurate diagnosis.i do have a problem with the feeling theres 2 sides to me one of which battles to take over and sometimes does. thats when i loose reality and cant remember whats gone on.i only have minute recollection all jumbled up.in my last job they used to call me jeykle and hyde as at times i was a different person from one day to the next then stable for a while.i know i have mental health problems and one ore two bits seem to be getting worse with time.
Author:  rehtnap [ Mon Jun 13, 2016 12:03 pm ]
Blog Subject:  breakdown
i have had a mental breakdown and i have no excuse for the ranting in the last post. i lost the plot bigtime and it was all said in a fit of anger and confusion. i have anger isssues that boil up but i dont act on them they come out as evil rantings on this blog. i actually wish my old consultant no harm he tried to help me i just got suicidal and started ranting and lashing out at anyone. im not well and i must learn not to post such agressive nd offensive stuff, i just loose the plot and lash out verbaly.i am trying to seek help but i get so bad i just kick out any help and put myself int self destruct mode.to threaten such actions is stupid i dont mean to they just come out but im in a desperate place mentally and its all going wrong.
Author:  rehtnap [ Thu Jun 09, 2016 1:51 pm ]
Blog Subject:  miind gone
got the electronic tag removed as all i want ot do is go back to the saunas and have the roughest sex i can get. hope i can catch hep c again so i can spread the gift. thrown all my hiv meds away im not interested in been treated for that anymore id rather be infectious.ive lost the plot and just into self destruct mode and i dont care who gets caught up innthe way thats there bad luck. got taken in for threataning suicide but it was all a joke, kepts waiting hours to see a psyc doc who spent 15 mins before deciding i was ok to go howm . i even told him i hated my old consultant and wished him nothing but death at one point but mental health up here is a joke. my life is screwed so i intend to screw as many lifesup as i can before i either die or get locked up. ill go down fighting. if i ever get the balls up ill go through with my suicide plan. i hate the world. im going stir crazy stuck in this open prision of a house and its cracked me up
Author:  rehtnap [ Thu May 26, 2016 1:59 pm ]
Blog Subject:  it
going dangerously mad.
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