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Needing a break from social life
I am not depressed. I know the pain of depression. Of not wanting to get out of bed, of having no energy, of life seeming bleak. I don't feel that at this time. But I want to retreat into my own little world where no one enters my life unless I allow them to. I want a break from being around other people. I want to pick and choose who I want in my life during this time and I want to also come back into the world when I'm good and ready. But why am I stating this or questioning if I can do this? Because it's a pattern I've followed for many years now. It's not that I want to break it, no, I just feel the need to step back and take a breather for as long as I need it. I know I need this and in my own way I am going to attempt to make it happen, because it is very important to me. I will not go out of my way to seek others out, but if they seek me out, then I will welcome them into my life, because I don't want to be rude. I will come and go as I please without being obligated to anyone be it with phone calls or having lunch. I will learn to say no to those two things. I want to be alone. But again, if they seek me out, I will not turn them down. This is what I need to do in my life. I have friends and I have very close friends and I have my bestie (best friend), and my very close friends and my bestie mean a ton to me. My friend or acquaintances, as some of them are that, I need to limit my time with them only because I feel the need to be alone. They are wonderful people in my life, and I love them all, but I am needing this break. Anyhow, that is how I feel at this point in my life.
“There’s an Asian expression that ‘a burden shared is halved.’"
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