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| Author: | RunawayFaye [ Fri Jan 09, 2015 6:01 am ] |
| Blog Subject: | Burnt pancakes do not alleviate kratom withdrawal. |
It turns out that the following two things have been confirmed to be true: 1) Kratom is, indeed, habit-forming and with prolonged use will ultimately lead to something very closely resembling a heroin withdrawal, and 2) I am humanly incapable of making pancakes without burning them. I'm no longer just a Bipolar/ADHD recovering alcoholic and drug addict, I'm also a kratom junkie who burns pancakes. Awesome. I used to wonder why I'm 30 and unmarried, and I now know the answer. Burnt pancakes. (Just kidding.) See, here's the bitch of the situation: nobody knows anything about this kratom crap. For those who aren't familiar, kratom is a plant grown in southeast Asia that produces a euphoria very similar to Vicodin or heroin. For years, users and head shop owners alike have been saying that it's non-addictive, harmless, and that one cannot become physically dependent on it. Not a single of these statements is true. It can be used to wean off of heroin, vicodin, and other opiods, but you're essentially switching out one for the other. I've been using off and on for about five years, and ever since June it's been more on than off. For the past several of those months it's been every day, because I now get sick if I don't have it. I remember it clear as day. I woke up one morning feeling what felt very, very similar to dope sickness. When I put two and two together I thought, "This cannot POSSIBLY be happening." I did not conquer both heroin and alcohol dependence just to give in to this. I can get pretty depressed as it is, but this just makes it worse. And I'm reminded of it every day because I have to take it every few hours or I start to get sick. I started looking at various forums online and I'm not the only one. There are thousands of people addicted to this and no one really knows anything about it. Researchers have been studying alcohol and drugs for years, decades even. This is hopeless, I'm kind of at a loss. I have no idea how to fight this except to treat it like a heroin withdrawal and bear the three days of hell. I swore to myself that I would never be enslaved by a substance again. I've been sober, clean off drugs and alcohol (except for psychiatric medication) for going on five months now. Am I not sober anymore? What do I do? I'm confused, lonely, and I feel like a sorry excuse for a person. Again. Classes start in a week and I really don't want to be taking this stuff in the bathroom between classes for another term. Just a terrible feeling. If anyone out there has experience with kratom, knows how to fight this, or is just willing to talk, please reach out. Please. I'm so tired of being alone on this. |
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