Katrinas,
Hi there. When I read your entry I thought immediately about my first and only stay in the hospital... during which I felt like a complete fake for not having "real problems" like I saw all around me. Looking at people who were "worse" than me, and seeing some who weren't even coherent to know who they were or where they were made me feel like I had no business being there. Then one day a nurse heard me voicing my feelings and she walked up to me and said "Listen, just because you don't have the same problems as others does not make your issues invalid. Do not discount your problems because they are important to YOU. We do not measure whether or not a person "deserves" to be here to get help by the severity of their condition." Kinda made me not feel selfish or bad about wanting help. So you came on here for some reason... maybe known or unknown to you. That's a GOOD THING. If you felt the need to visit, that's all that counts. The site's not meant for us to judge each other or assess who's suffering the most... we're all suffering in some way that is impacting OUR quality of life.
Not trying to blast you... just want you to know that you are JUST as deserving to visit and find support on this site as anyone else with any other condition. You DO matter.
As far as blogs, they can be used for anything you wish... to vent, blabber, talk to others, journal, etc. If you look at some of my blogs, I just ramble and ramble with no actual point. If no one reads, I'm cool with that... I use the blog to just dump out crap that, until I came here, I had been manually writing out in a journal (typing's a lot quicker...lol). So type as little or as much as you like; have a point or none; talk to others, yourself, or no one in particular. It's all about having a safe place to say whatever the heck we need to get out of our heads.
And not everyone is strong all the time... I'm getting strong, but in the last couple of days I've trainwrecked on some stupid stuff and come here to just blather it out. The mind is a rollercoaster... what goes up, gravity tugs to come down. No one here will assess whether you're "doing ok" or not... it's when you're not that coming here might actually help.
Sorry if I sound like I'm preaching at you (I'm in my not-so-strong period and I accidentally get overblunt when I'm a bit weaker... so hope I haven't scared you off) Just wanted to reassure you that if/when you feel like typing anything on here, you are just as welcome as the rest of us
-Koshka
