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| Author: | OMNICELL [ Sun Dec 01, 2024 4:55 am ] |
| Blog Subject: | It is over... |
It is over…. . I must heal…… . . Its as if I was under the spell of a Witch…. . The universe has brought me out of it… . Now; everything has changed. And Ive come back to myself…. . Im speaking of FIRST LOVE; Or what ever monstrosity that was…. . And what evil this is…. . A whole family of Evil. Only through God when I discovered the brother was just as evil and a part of his sister; it was like a team of vampires feeding on and finding victims… One would set up the victim and then bring the other to his sister. They were truly pure evil.. Monsters… Working together…. . Dangerous… Pure psychopaths… . One is pulled in never to be seen again… . God has rescued me; But rescued me to what? . . Suddenly my mind is peaceful and in the present… Im in my Right Mind… Kind of; much like the Witcher video game… Atleast the games before the Woke corrupted them…. . . Here I am; suddenly everything is quiet; like being in a jail cell all this time… Never realizing I was in my mind and within my mind in a vast coffin of poison; where my delusions were fighting imaginary monsters; and hoping to surface some day; if I did surface; what would I surface to? Surface to what… . It has been done.. . She is no more….. . . Acceptance is of the day… . It is what I asked for; Asked for from God…. . . Im still bloody beat up from the street up! My nervous system feels like it went through a tug-a-war…. My mind is about the only thing left in tact; well; I should say my soul is free.. A part of my troubled soul is suddenly here and in peace… . Its been freed… . Now What! . I slowly learn how to live again. . And all of this I asked God for; many moons ago… . I am no longer hooked at the edges of this insanity; I have fallen from it; fallen to the ground where I just lay… I lay and look up… I am now at a more grounded level where the evil cant touch me; cant find me; For; The meek shall inherit the earth. . . . Will I have to write more on that past situation? I don’t think so. I think Im done… . Do I feel done. Yes; I crossed a divide… To the other side. . I may not be in very good shape; after such a long fight; but its over… . If I have grievousness and resentments and anger and quiet discontent; it wont be connected to that part of my past; the part with the Witch… For there is no more “ part of me with the witch”; it is gone.. . I feel strange; almost sick to my stomach; kind of! . I feel weak and torn down. I feel lost and found at the same time… . I feel restless and at peace at the same time. . I know I wont be going back to that subject.. Not for a long time. . The main parts of this story; Ive unhinged/ unleashed from and fallen away… . No longer belong to the spell that harnessed me and rode me like a ghosted horse on a white crystal cold snowy sparkling night… . I wake up realizing what Ive not been doing for most of my life; Living. My mind was consumed; looking for relief… . Now; I have a strange relief; It comes from God… The universe… . It will take some time to get used to; to be free… \. Im not sure what freedom is? . Im not sure I can ever go back.. back to the spell that rendered me useless and broken. I may have awaken permanently… I think… Yes; still more fights in the present to deal with… But not with the Witch or her evil clansman…. . I am still mentally ill; I still have many fights and battles to deal with. I still have other monsters to give way to God... . It is stressful to be awake.. . |
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