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| Author: | OMNICELL [ Fri Mar 10, 2023 2:07 am ] |
| Blog Subject: | Phase 8 # 30; alignment with God |
Alignment with God . . . Alignment with God at this point is the next step; a stronger deeper relying on God… . Deeper relationship with the Universe/God… . Down Gods path; God brings me what I want! Down Gods path. . . . . Ive talked allot in my blogs about many things; and about many people; The people Ive talked about in my blogs from potential girlfriends to friends to father or mother or offenders; They all had something in common; they were all liars and they were all Godless regardless of what they may have shown to the outside world; Non of them knew God or were with God! Non of them… . So; Their is my dysfunction. I was around nothing but Godless people. I mean; that's all I was around. I learned a horrible stern lesson… Do not associate with fake God people or false people or 2 faced people; if I can help it! Don't associate with Godless people; and do not try to save someone who does not have God in their life… Stay away from them… permanently. . I associated with people who had many books and programs on God… it all looked very good; However; they thought they were above other and right beneath God; they were second in command to God and they looked down on other people. If Im associating with them; soon; they will be looking down on me… if not from the start; and their children will be taught they are better then all others and should only associate with someone of their superior crowd; and that means money! They will lie steal and cheat God; and claim to man they are innocent… They may even study about God but they don’t believe because; they don’t have to. Nothing is missing from their lives; They don’t need God. . The universe has revealed to me something very simple; All people Ive had trouble with; non were with God; not one. A few claimed to be study’rs of God; But in the end they lied. They were worshipers of themselves. They were very good at fooling me and the rest of the world; but I saw through it because of the horrible way they treated me; they treated me like a second class citizen and I didn’t understand; Now I do understand. I was in the hallways of the devil. . Satan casts a bright strange light trying to fool the simple… Satan wants to attract the lost-souls that he may obtain their souls. For he is a soul destroyer. He shines a light and makes it look like God. In the end I drives a spike through the heart of blind… . Looking back; Not one of the people I associated with had God with them and had no interest in ever having God with them. God meant nothing to them; so; thus; I meant nothing to them! And this is a hint from them for me to leave and never return and return back to God… . So; I work with God on being under Gods light and umbrella; the real God… and walking down Gods pathways… . God will bring the right people and places and things down those pathways… . The unGodly never asked me to intervene… God never asked me to intervene on them( fake friends) either. I was suppose to follow God and God would shower down my lifes desires upon me… Its starts with God not me and then its God and me; Not God me and some factious idea Im going to save some vampire thats had just as much opportunity to learn about God as I have. . On a darker side; I was dreaming about what I wanted God to bring me then I turned away from God ( then god showered down my lies upon me)and went and got it myself ( my selfish desires)and proclaimed it came from God; it did not take long for the world to be pulled out from underneath me and for I to be destroyed. For the world gobbles up such men as myself when I am in folly! . Its important to understand to leave the Godless man alone! Do not try to save him; He is not drowning. Do not save anyone… Go the way of God and work under Gods spell. Work with God. . Do not be envious of the Godless; for in their fruitless endeavors they fall into folly the way a skeleton finds its sleeping spot in a cave; alone and full of useless darkness… They trip upon their own rocks… always blind and asleep; but they are awake to the ways of evil because they are blind to the ways of God… So; they can see just fine! And worse; they have friends who glow in the dark.. Their plight is not my business. . My business is to be about God and let God shower a life down upon me that I be happy… . My Job is only one; to focus on God… . ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- . I am getting better or will get better. A foundation is being created by God universe and by myself within my imagination… its a set of bi ways and pathways of different sorts and functions and developmental areas to practice within. A whole world is and will be created within my imagination. And its all aligned by God or with God. . Im feeling better; I beginning to see my future. A future of who I am.. Who I was already. Who I wanted to be when I was loved when very young and felt like I was part of a family. I was not really loved all that much. I was loved by my father and not by my mother but my mother had to do what my father told her to do… . Anyway; Im getting back to that place; I can tell; because; Im taking control of my subconscious; Im taking control of my imagination; Im owning it or will work it and own it like an artist owns his paintbrushes and his canvas. . My subconscious seems to be in a position of subordination to my imagination. Who owns my imagination owns my mind. And right now; I OWN IT! And thus; Im working it! Im working my imagination like working a corn field. Its not quite that good yet; meaning; im no where near that kind of control or mastery; I am getting use to trusting the idea of working in my subconscious tho. With time Ill get it back; ownership of my imagination… Im working on it right now… . MY OPINION: What healthy child have? They have that untouched imagination; thus everything goes into that imagination first; and they live in that place and thus they own the world. . I plan to get my imagination back and use it for my benefit.. . . lately as I get better; Ive noticed almost every meeting; someone is trying to cut me down; put me down… And I notice several narcissists or sociopathic types playing me to vie getting my attention at-least once so they can own the meeting. It wont take long for me to outdo all of this if I keep going the way Im going; In months I should be better. . I started writing a story today about having a new relationship; So; its officially started; that means work in my imagination. The idea of writing new stories to be involved in new relationships means one thing; the old is gone; And it is. Im like a snake bite victim that got better and now Im kind of walking around with a big whole in my body where the poison ate me alive. IT will heal but its big and a part of me is compressed back. It feels like I had cancer and they operated and Im better now and getting better. But Im still ill from being ill. Im not back on my feet; and that is the next goal. Im not sure how long that will take. And I have much more PTSD to face from other situations of my past… . Im creating pathways in my head to my destinations and with a long time and allot of work; things should only get better. . . MUSIC: So; I finished a basic piece. Nothing special special; but some important aspects. The way I dealt with the editing of the music. I was much more proficient to create a solid finished product; even if its a bit basic and immature… My goal is to have a strong ending; middle and beginning.. Its about being solid… having notes aligned.. My goal is to finish something; and not bother with details… but I will bother with refinements to make it a solid beginner piece. . So; things are working as planned. I create something new; the idea is to finish it; not try to create some world masterpiece that will never get finished. I lack to much experience or ability or maybe talent at different ends of things to even finish a song. So; just finishing something was a major victory… so; Im happy the way things are going. . And the universe is creating a world for me to walk into if with support I decide to pray for help… and take a little tiny bit of safe secure action. Just a little to test the waters; maybe; or take action being safe by going back and working with God or curling up in my room watching the crime channel eating a pop-cycle. If you have mental illness; remember; YouTube-Crime-channel/Cozy giant pillows/sleeping bag/pop-cycles. |
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