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| Author: | OMNICELL [ Sun Dec 13, 2020 1:24 pm ] |
| Blog Subject: | Dealing with my own Demons concerning women |
Im the women hater; Am I a women hater; and thats the problem?. Well; am I a women hater or am I so intolerant and heated that it comes out around women and I take it out on women around me. But I dont take it out on them physically or illegally or something; its passive aggression or something; dissociation. I avoid them; pull away from them. . Some thoughts and remarks on a young women I dealt with in the meetings. . I could not accept she liked me; if I accepted that she liked me; that means shes a nice girl and I could not do that; could not see her as innocent and nice; just couldn't do it. I had to lie and cheat and steal and beg and manipulate and con what ever else character flaw in order to pull off she was a bad person. Maybe she is; but is that really any of my business. She must be a bad person to like me; I only want bad people liking me. . Im having a hard time accepting a nice women... or that a nice women would like me. . God is preparing me for nice women. I have a hard time with nice women... I dont trust any women. . . I have to get to a place of responding to whom God sends me..... . I have to work my way out of this into the arms of nice women; that is the problem. And it is happening and it is hard. . Im suppose to hook up with the women God sends me no other; so; I dont get to go find the soccer mom who just got a divorce; God will send me the right soulmates; thats whats happened so far... Heres the deal; I have to be ready for her; she is a delicate creature; broken probably and needing to be loved by someone; and that is my job working under God... . Im being directed by God to do the work to get up to speed... When God sends one of these women; I am to be able to respond to them now; that is the goal; and Im starting to get the fire underneath me concerning it... slowly; but its happening; the changes are occurring... . Dealing with this pain in front of me is hard; its like a hardened wall Im trying to break through. Im doing it because the pressure is mounting on the other side; meaning the side Im on; the pressure is mounting; I want change; Ive had enough of this... . Changes are occurring within my imagination as I do the writing work to create new stories for my new life; its forcing me to live more directly in front of me... . So; Its time to manifest a new women into my life; that is the next big goal.. |
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| Author: | Snaga [ Sun Dec 13, 2020 4:42 pm ] |
Some thoughts: I know you have a hard time trusting women- I do, too, when it comes to whether they really like me, or not. But that doesn't make them all bad. Don't... have unrealistic expectations. I'm about your age- at our age, no one is going to have had that perfect past. Anyone we realistically have a chance of hooking up with, is likely to have had one or more failed relationships- it doesn't mean they're a bad person, but we have to expect they'll have baggage, just as we have our own. That's just the accumulation of life. |
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