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| Author: | xcagedsilhouttex [ Thu Nov 01, 2018 3:56 am ] |
| Blog Subject: | Eulogy |
Last night, as I closed my eyes, The thought of you haunted me I had the feeling of being pushed under water I couldn't breathe Suffocating And I know my condition is self imposed In that you are not the one enforcing this But it doesn't make it any less difficult Certain synchronicities have drawn me towards you You came into my life when I was at a crossroads In a world where I felt isolated And you took away that emptiness more effectively than any drug In a way, that is how I consumed you But you are worth more to me than that We are like mirrors to each other Reversed images but similar in characteristics The comfort lay not in having similar aspirations But in emotional (or lack of) understanding And this will forever be the problem Because, despite how obvious it is, We can never call each other out in our nonsense Our nonsense is the same We can't hold each other accountable when we are equally as guilty That being said, All the things that you feel are wrong Are the aspects that I love If I were a man, I would do the same It never bothered me I wouldn't have wanted you to change and don't This all lies on me and my fears The truth is, even though I really thought I was ready, I am afraid because I know I will be consumed by you I am so scared and I dream that you will find where I have hidden and hold me, tell me that everything will be fine But that's too close to be around you I can't handle the intensity of your flame A part of me wants to run as far away as I can I don't expect you to understand or to even care But either way, I am sorry. You probably will never see this. I am truly a fool. |
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