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| Author: | flowingtears [ Sat Dec 10, 2011 2:53 pm ] |
| Blog Subject: | Alone |
My best friend is moving country next year. My psychiatrist is leaving next year. My sister recently moved. I saw her last weekend, made me miss her more now she's gone. Everyone leaves. They distance themselves either physically or emotionally. Friends, family, mental health professionals. Meeting K next weekend. I need him to define our relationship. I can't handle uncertainty. But what if he hates me for asking? I don't know what I want from him, but I don't want him to reject me. People keep telling me I'd be better off without him. But do I deserve better? I don't hate myself. At least I don't think so. Hating takes too much energy. I dislike myself. But not with any sort of passion. It's a passive dislike. Something I don't really think about. Saw my therapist yesterday. Once I started talking to her, I didn't really want to stop. I left feeling sort of sad though. Sad because she's so nice, but I can't let her help me. Sad because no matter how much I explain things to her or anyone else, they never fully understand. |
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