|Psychology and Mental Health Forum
|floatingtree [ Thu Oct 11, 2012 8:13 pm ]
|We're all just chimps in suits
That "friend" of mine invited me on another night out. I'm not going. Ha, imagine if he read this and discovered how much he annoys me!
So many people my age are getting engaged.. And I'm still in my twenties! I'm seriously considering becoming a hermit. Being totally cut off from humanity.. I wonder what that would be like. For years, my most common fantasy is to be totally alone. The last man standing...
I have been very depressed this week. During the evenings I recover a little, although that could be because I'm just distracting myself with stuff.
I've noticed that if I see someone I know, very often I wait for them to say hello first. I feel unworthy to initiate conversation. I've spent most of my life feeling ashamed and depressed. I make jokes to disguise my social phobia, so people probably think I'm really laid back and happy. I'm the opposite.
Hopefully a nice solitary weekend will lift my spirits. Well, they couldn't be much lower than they are right now.
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