I am not the same old person that I used to be. I am not vulnerable or helpless anymore.I now know exactly what I want and move with confidence till I get it. I have the right to do what is suitable for me. I came a long road till I reached this point where I feel powerful and strong.I no longer get angry and rage on little things.I can control my Emotions and manage my Thoughts.I take full responsibility of my actions and responses.I am fully aware of myself and what is going on in my life.

I no longer fear or withdraw.I can stand and talk face-to-face.I can talk assertively but calmly.I can stand up for my rights.I can defend myself and protect my life.I no longer compensates for the things and behaviors that I miss. I no longer live in an imaginary world trying to get what I strive for. I work in reality on completing the blank spaces in my personality.

This is the new version of Myself. I will continue moving forward and Never step back.

“Yes I Can”. I am not going to run for any elections.But, I am willing and determined to live the life that I wish and deserve.I simply owe this to myself.

Of coarse you know ,or at least came across this phrase before.However,I am not going to talk here about Rome.I want to talk about 'Change",any type of change,but precisely "Personal change".
I started the journey,as I like to call it,of change in 2011.At the beginning,I just wanted to change because I wasn't satisfied with myself and my life as it was.What I was unsatisfied with were many things and that's totally another story,that I may talk about later in a separate post.
Anyway,my journey started with the goal of change but as I went on,I discovered that not all what I hoped to change is bad or unsatisfactory to me.It actually works for me and I like it,but the problem arose from the people,especially family member,who always surrounds me.Their continuous criticism and negative comments brought me down and made me unsure about myself and what I do.Their negativity bombarded my soul and affected my emotions to the degree that made me think that
"I am bad" and "I must change". I admit I needed to change something in myself.However,this thing was not myself or my behavior.It was my self-concept or,as some people like to call it,my self-image.It is the way how I think and perceives myself and what I do.I am not a bad or offensive person in the core,nor I need to modify or shift everything I do.This self-debate proposed a significant question:"What I do everyday that contradicts my inner self and needs to change?" and most important "what are the things that I like or hate anyway?". I realized that I need to answer these questions and discover my true self first to know specifically what to change.Since then,I came along a long and exhausting road of self discovery and self explore,and may be exploring life
itself again but this time more confidently about and acting upon what I have discovered and willing to change.Yeah,Change is a tough and slow process,yet it is rewarding and worth all your effort and time,provided that You do it ِas a matter of self-growth,not just obeying the orders or instructions of anyone.
"Rome wasn't built in a day",that's merely true.But the important thing is that,it was finally built. Nonetheless,how much time or effort it has consumed.

I have been lately feeling a "Vacancy" in my life.I don't know why or how I got this annoying feeling.May be because I no longer do what I need or like.I depend on external factors to feel happy.
I have always been really happy only when I am in contact and rhyme of my true self.Going with my desires and satisfying my needs is the key to my happiness.This is not selfishness.I have the full right to be happy.This what I deserve.
I will be searching inside myself for the Answers to my questions.I will never stop till I find them,no matter how long it will take me or how much effort I will exert.In all cases,this is my only road to Happiness.

It is sometimes hard to keep on track of your way.It just hard to stick to your rules and decisions all the time.But I made a personal oath to follow my policy and dedicate to it.This is the only proved way for me to live in peace of mind.Obstacles are infinite,but my determination to be happy and comfortable is endless too.
I must be in rhyme of myself.I must be in contact with my inner self.It all depends on me and my behavior.People especially family try to set me off to their own standards.To do the things that follow their interest.
ok,I was always feel unrelated to them.I always didn't feel integrity with social norms.I always think for myself and follow my own path.People always saw me as out-of-law.But it is my right to find what works for me.It may not be what works for everyone.But I never caused any harm to anyone,at least on intention.So in short,I have the right to do what is aligned with the person inside without reasoning or justifications.

Well,I was experiencing an emotional block building up the last 2 weeks.It caused me anxiety so severely that I suffered from insomnia and couldn't sleep for more than 3 hours everyday.My biological clock was ultimately disturbed.It means my few sleeping hours weren't even fixed in the same time everyday.What made it worse is that I only Took one meal everyday.I was really exhausted and this affected my clarity of mind and made me think of trouble thoughts and feel horrible emotions.Anyway,I am fine today because I slept for about 7 hours yesterday.Moreover,I experienced great relief when I
had a vent talk with mother.It wasn't ideal,but talking out my trapped thoughts,worries and emotions
eased the inner pressure and overwhelm.