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Author:  coneyislandking [ Wed Apr 02, 2014 10:27 pm ]
Blog Subject:  Today

Today has been really nice. It's been up and down, but I have not felt terribly insecure or sad all day, and that is a blessing.

I saw Dylan today when I was sitting on the bus. He was walking back to campus. I decided it was go time and I got off that bus and followed him until I could catch up. When I got close, I tapped him on the shoulder. I felt sick, like I could puke. I was so nervous! I said "yo" and he said "'sup?" and I think I might have said not much. For a while, nothing else was said. I walked by his side and just appreciated that our steps were in sync despite us not talking. Our brains were connected. I don't even think I was trying to do it, which I have done in the past with other people.

After a while I asked for his attention and apologized for calling him so many times, he said it was cool. We then talked about some stuff, like I asked his last name and his major. I asked him what he wanted to do when he grew up, and we talked about whether it was better to be unrealistic or realistic. I was in favor of unrealistic while he was contrary to that. Nothing was decided on the matter.

He is a chemical engineering major and dreams of perhaps discovering an element or inventing a polymer or something.

He didn't ask anything about me but I don't mind. I'm actually hoping to outgrow him. I needed reason to think he was still available to me and that's what I got. I'm not going to rock the boat anymore.

And in the morning, I climbed your tree and flew away.

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