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Author:  brainslug [ Wed Sep 19, 2012 10:58 pm ]
Blog Subject:  What happened friday

Okay, so I guess I lied. This isn't Friday's tomorrow, but it will have to do ;)

Friday was great for the most part. There were some negatives, but it was a good day.

So, friday morning was okay. I went to calc and it was okay.

After calc, I have an hour of free time, so I went to my car to make sure I could find the restaurant that we (chem class) were going to meet at, and it was a good thing that I did. I looked up the directions using yelp, and it took me to a cemetery... Luckily, we had all exchanged numbers in lab, so I texted my lab partner and asked her how to get there. She gave really good directions, actually. I used google streetview and looked to make sure that it was where she had described it (I wasn't close to it and had to be getting back to the school by now). Sure enough, it was there.

Then I went back to the school for my lit class. We had a writing assignment. I did horribly. We had 40 minutes, and I was not paying attention to the time. She announced that we had 2 minutes left, and I had not even started on the conclusion, and I still had to go back and proofread and check my spelling. I scrawled out what I could in the last few minutes and didn't have enough time to get a dictionary and check words or proofread.

As I was walking to my car, two encounters occurred.

First, as I was walking past the IC, I saw two people I know from HS. One of them a friend, and the other the girl who asked me to prom. The friend said hello, and I waved back. The girl said hello and waved. I waved back. I avoided walking toward them and went along the side of the building(on a walkway) instead of going through the entrance where they were. It was nice to see my friend again, and it was nice to know I was on good terms with the girl still, even after my craziness.

Then I passed my lab partner who was having a smoke break. She asked me if I needed a ride, and I declined, but it was a nice gesture.

I arrived at the restaurant without a problem. I walked in, but I just sat in the lobby, thinking we were going to meet there or something. A few minutes later, my lab partner and her sister walked in. Lucky for me she came in after me, because everyone else was already eating, and I think I would have stayed in the lobby for about 10 minutes if she had not told me that they were already in and eating.

The three of us walked in, and the others were already at a table. They said they didn't expect for us to come (but not in a rude way), and they said especially that they didn't expect me (probably because I don't talk much).

The main table was already full, and they couldn't get more room, so the three of us sat at a new table just across from theirs. We talked some, but I didn't talk much. Of course, with my luck, prom came up as a subject. Considering the first encounter pre-eating, it hit me a bit harder than I would have expected. I pretty much sat quietly while someone from HS told a misinformed story about why I didn't go to prom. My lab partner asked me about it and I said I just didn't want to talk about prom, and she seemed to respect that.

Lab partner proceeded to complement me and then say that she would have gone to prom with me if she had been there. Although nice, it was a bit strange. I felt uncomfortable firstly just because it was a complement, and I don't really know what to do with those. Secondly, it was strange because it is like hearing your male friend say "I would go to prom with you if you were a girl". Not to say that I think she is like a male, but it is the same kind of thing, like it isn't something that is exactly fitting for social roles or something. Still, I thanked her, and I think the complement was genuine because I have heard it before (it is the one consistent complement that I can trust because it has occurred enough time, and it seems like it would be true considering objective analysis [my smile/teeth is the complement, I don't mean to make it seem secretive or something])

Then, I talked to her sister a bit about video games. She asked me if I had played Skyrim, and I told her I had some, but not all the way through (which is almost always the answer when people ask me about games, but it really turn the conversation into a dead end). She said that she liked it, and I tried to be polite, but I couldn't think of anything to respond with, so I just went back to eating.

The food made me feel a bit sick due probably to its high fat content which I am not used to (and fat does not seem to digest good for me, not in a particularly disgusting way, but in the way that it makes my stomach rumble and feels like it is coming back up my throat/ out of my skin)

Fast-forward through compsci (I took a test. It was okay, I made a 98.)

Since I finished the test a bit early, I got out early. As I was leaving, I ran into an old friend of mine sitting in the lobby. It was a pleasant surprise. I didn't even know he was going to this college, I pretty much lost contact with him after he graduated HS(He was 2 years older than me). If you can imagine meeting a long-lost friend, this is that feeling (even though we weren't really long-lost). We talked a little bit, asked what each other was doing now, etc. It was pretty cool.

The day at school was good. If every day was like that, I would be a happy, happy guy.

When I got home, though, I got chewed out by my mother, as I mentioned in the blog Friday. It actually turned out to be a mistake. They had accidentally billed us for something that should have been automatically covered...

The part that really made my day go to crap was the fact that I read something on a social network site from the girl who had asked me to prom, and it was about some guy. I mean, I think she has a boyfriend or semi-boyfriend, or something, and occasionally I see one of her posts about that and it doesn't affect me much, but apparently, seeing her earlier that day in combination to that really hit me. It shouldn't have affected me that much, but it did. I don't know, it is still a sensitive subject (and maybe it always will be).

All the other days leading up to today were fairly uneventful except for the fact that I didn't do so well on my sociology test. I made an 85, putting me at an 88 for the class. I didn't even do too good in the class ranking of it. I think I was the 6th or 7th highest grade out of 24, so I definitely should try to improve on that, and I may actually have to study (like real-study where you sit down for a few hours and highlight or do a study guide) for those exams. Luckily, it is within a realistic range of getting it up to an 'A', and sociology isn't too related to my major, so a 'B' wouldn't KILL me, but I am going to drop the class if I make a 'B' on the next test (I will have enough time before midterms, so I can get a 'W' if I drop it.) But I don't plan on making a 'B' on the next test.

Funny how sociology ends up being my most difficult class when I expected it to be the easiest, and Chem ends up being the easiest (and most fun) when I was deathly afraid of it.



Comments

Author:  rootbeer [ Sat Oct 06, 2012 2:12 am ]

It is wonderful that you were able to have so many social interactions that day and instead of taking the easy road and avoiding the lunch, you went through with it despite all of your concerns. I think it helps to remember successes like those to help you overcome future social anxieties. Like, "I made it through the chemistry lunch, I will make it through this too."

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