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| Author: | Unnamed [ Wed Jan 04, 2012 12:16 pm ] |
| Blog Subject: | Paranoid thoughts |
That girl is laughing. Is she laughing at me? Yes, for sure she is. Why? I've done nothing weird. She's realized I'm just weird? Will them all start laughing at me? Perhaps they'll eventually plan some attack against me? Better not wait for it to happen, let's get the ###$ out of here. *changes direction and ends up walking 20 more minutes than he should to avoid a group of people*. This is annoying, there's no reason for me to believe I've dragged others' attention, and I know generally people doesn't randomly beat up others just because they look weird. Rationally I realize I'm invisible - so to speak - to others, yet when these thoughts assault me I seem to be strongly convinced it's not like that. Shall I hear somebody laughing - he's laughing at me. Someone looks me - he knows I'm weird. At times I even defend non-existing attacks from random passengers on the streets, who see me turning back for no reason and zig-zagging at times. It disturbs me because it isn't rational, moreover, I can rationalize it isn't happening. Yet, at times, it seems to nulify my rational capability and replace it with incoherent thoughts (maybe this is what normal people feel when they get angry? You definitely can't be rational with angry people, it seems to me they just give up their rational being). I'm also really skeptical and suspicious of everyone's intentions. If I can find the slightest contradiction on one's speech, that means everything said was a lie to get advantadge of me in any way, and won't think otherwise until proven wrong, people is evil by default to me. Even if I don't find any contradiction, and can't think of anything he wants to get of me, I'll still be alert. Moreover, I lack the capability to trust people: information you give, information they'll use against you. Only when you're anonymous you can seek for others' opinion without exposing yourself. |
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